dis is OUR story

i've moved

2007-07-30T22:34:00.000-07:00

i've moved!
RELINK ADRESS : http://feelthelurf.blogspot.com
thank you(:

230707 ; anjat gegerl(:

2007-07-23T18:07:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE(:
pardon me for the late updates ;
internet has been down.
& im currently busy in love.
huahuahua.

aniway...
baby was super sweet yesterday.
he texted me at 1715 saying "bie... today maybe i might be going over your place late taw. cos bende masok lambat arh."
i simply wanted time to fly ;
so i decided to go to sleep.
when at 1805, i was awaken by his call.
we talked nonsense for afew minutes when suddenly this converstaion started,
he: your place hujan tak, bie? sini ngah hujan shey.
me: saner ujan? sini tak hujan arh. panas terik lagik ader.
he: you confirm? gi check arh, bie.
me: betol larh ayg. i dont hear any raindrops though im in the room.
he: bie... aper salahnyer you gi check. lazy bum shey you nie.
to make hym happy, i went out to check and i received the shock of my life ;
HE WAS STANDING BY THE SIDE OF THE GATE.
tak ker terkejut!
i hugged hym at that very moment!
macam nak nangis pon ader sheyy.
*smiless*

SPREE UPDATES
i've gotten Couples Lab Ring,
i've gotten Charles & Keith Sandal,
i've gotten Giordano Tops,
i've gotten the HothBeach Flops,
&&
i want that Little Miss Stubborn Top,
i want that Adidas Bag,
i want that Crumpler Sling Pouch,
i want that Dress,
i want that PSP,
and the list goes on.

but NONONO!
im not gonna be a spendthrift ;
for my waiting time will be longer if i spent like nobody business.
LOL!
okayy.
i'm off to have breakfast(:
keep the tags flowing, baby!

after one month of not updating ;

2007-07-02T12:15:00.000-07:00

last updated: 040607 ;
todays date: 020707.

after missing for almost a month ;
due to some internet connection problem,
im finally back, baby!
but honestly, i feel like closing down this journal of mine ;
but then again,
this is where i have all my good AND bad memories.
hmm.
now i have something to think about(:

well.
life has been great for me ;
beautiful love,
wonderful times,
& most importantly,
awesome blessings.
sweet love larh shey.
*smiless*

short entry for now ;
cos im having some tangled wires.
plusplus mood swings.

goodbye people(:

TAG REPLIES
;; Fuzy: HELLO to awak too(:
;; aisyah: thankies darling!IMY also!
;; wawakiss: sorry babe! my internet suced big time! you still need the song? nudge me if you do.
;; twisted: sudah sihh!(:
;; ZEE: done babe! && it was nice bumping onto you<33
;; amalina: PS on saturday? i did went there but it was on friday ; not saturday. hmm.
;; sajeev: thanks bro!

atas nama cinta

2007-06-04T12:00:00.000-07:00

aiyak!
im addicted to this song!
especially the parts in bold.

Atas Nama Cinta - Rossa
aku wanita yang punya cinta dihati
ada diriku dan dirinya dalam hidupku
mengapa terlambat cintamu t'lah termiliki
sedang diriku dengan dia tak begitu cinta

*
mengapa yang lain bisa
mendua dengan mudahnya
namun kita terbelenggu
dalam ikatan tanpa cinta

reff:
atas nama cinta hati ini tak mungkin terbagi
sampai nanti hingga aku mati
cinta ini hanya untuk engkau

atas nama cinta kurelakan jalanku merana
asal engkau akhirnya denganku
ku bersumpah atas nama cinta

lost ;

2007-06-02T08:10:00.000-07:00

*smiles*
i've abandoned this blog of mine for more than a week already?
oppss!
im just plain tired larh sheyy!
been working & now im down with sore eyes.
*toot*
aint gonna make this entry long ;
cos my eyes hurt looking at the screen.

PS: cant wait for end of the month! pay comes in ; i'll shop till i drop(:

tag replies
aifaa. ; tag has been replied via your blog, dear(:
wawakiss ; naseb? no! it was because MY LOVE was in there<33
Kasilahhh ; ridwan? you can have hym. mine is ridHwan. HAHA!
mrs farwan ; update? my life is too confusing to put into words. how arh, teacher?

KAKA!

2007-05-24T12:00:00.000-07:00

yayness!
AC Milan won(:
"Liverpool struggles to contain Kaka" ;
*smiles*

HE IS LOVE<33

you're IT

2007-05-20T17:02:00.000-07:00

* This is what you are supposed to do.
[1] Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.
[2] Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves.
[3] People who gets tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly.
[4] Once done, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.
[5] After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog...

1.When I can't sleep, I will dream bout
* DEATH? (X

2.When Im bored at home, I would
* SLEEP(:

3.I love to have a long ride home in the bus while hearing my mp3
* so that the trip wont be a BORING one.

4.I like to sing in the bathroom
* cos it runs in my blood.

5.I hate to look myself in the mirror cuz
* im afraid the mirror might crack ; HAHA!

6.I dun wanna go school....cuz Im
* im no longer schooling :D

peeps that i will tag...
*Aifaa*
*Munirah*
*Syasya*
*Kasilah*
*Fatin Athira*
*Kamisah*

Styles From Beyond

2007-05-19T22:35:00.000-07:00

as usual,
went to TKC [Tanjong Katong Complex] with mama & grannie.
SHOCKINGLY, sassy'sister [athira] tagged along.
haha!

didnt really expect it to be this happening.
because...
i had a photo session with syz and SFB.
its Styles From Beyond!
ARGHH!!!~
i shall let the pictures do the talkings.
bye, loves!

PS: HAPPY 16TH MONTHS TO FARAZ!

job hop(:

2007-05-16T22:00:00.001-07:00

i want you to know that...
i LOVE you with all my heart ;
f*ck any obstacles that may come,
we shall face it together.
for what matters most is the present we're seeing,
and the future that we look forward to.
the past shall be the past.

like finally...
i've settled down to ONE job.
from DELIFRANCE to MACDONALDS,
and now im working at 7-ELEVEN.
*wonder whats next*
LOL(:
well.
bro got the store I wanted ;
National University Hospital.
and even the shift i wanted!
the 11pm to 7am shift.
DAMMIT MAN.
i unfortunately got store 270 ; biopolis.
its so sucky):
at least kalau dapat NUH,
boleh jugak bertemu dengan nurse JANTANZ.
haha=P
so.
tomorrow's gonna be my FIRST day at work ;
and is scheduled to be with the area manager.
seven to three.
hopefully i'll do okay.
oraites then.
im off to bed then.
nighty night everybody!
wish me luck for tomorrow.
(:

PS: I MISS HYM!

job hop(:

2007-05-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

i want FREEDOM.

2007-05-14T14:20:00.000-07:00

FCUK.
i DONT understand this at all.
a teenager whose in her LATE teens ages DOESNT have freedom.
eg.
CANT go out till late nights,
HAVE to be home by EIGHT,
CANT overnight at chalets.
i mean, whats the point of having chalets if you cant overnight?

she realises her past mistakes.
she has learnt from it.
then till when does she have to face this shits?
shes the oldest but yet she doesnt get to do stuffs her younger sibings get to do.
she's feelng so stress up.
all shes asking for is FREEdom.
something shes been wanting years ago.

FCUK this feeling.
she knows her love life is causing her all this.
but why are people making age a matter?
does it really matter?
KNN larhh.

whatever it is,
happy belated mama's day, still.
im sorry for not being present for the event.
God's gift to every woman - the greatest pain which still is the greatest joy.

tag replies
;; mrs farwan: hahaha. changing it soon. (:
;; fasehah: ask hym bout it then. he introduced the song to me.
;; twisted: sorry arhh ; not in the mood arhh. haha.
;; fatin;DD: change URL only arh you. you've been re-linked.

di[N]ana

2007-05-03T21:05:00.000-07:00

Quote Of The Day: To Be With YOU Is Like A Dream Come True.

i dont know why ;
out of a sudden,
im addictive to this song.
though it kinda reminds me of my past,
but ...
heres the lyrics to the song.

title: Insan Bernama Kekasih
by: UNIC

Debar hatiku membisik rindu
Ingin aku katakan kau gadis idaman
Adakah mungkin kau kumiliki
Untuk aku jadikan insan bernama kekasih.

Keayuan yang tergambar lukisan nur iman
Bersulamkan keindahan santun perkataan
Bagai putih salju mendinginkan hangat perasaan
Mengusir segala resah di jiwa.

Kusampaikan salam ucapan mesra
Dan merisik khabar berita
Masihkah ada peluang
Untuk ku melafazkan cinta?

Umpama rembulan jatuh ke riba
Mendengar khabaran darinya
Padaku kau memendam rasa.

Pada Mu oh Tuhan
Ku memohon keredhaan
Nur kasih yang ku damba
Kekal hingga ke syuga.

Hanya satu yang ku pinta kebaikan dariNya
Moga dipelihara tulus cinta kita
Agar kukuh ikatan yang murni bahagia selamanya
Dengan lafaz pernikahan yang mulia.

Datanglah kasihmu dalam diriku
Menghiasi ruang hatiku
Akan kusambut dengan
Sujud penuh kesyukuran.

PS: it sounds super meaningful to me(:

burn

2007-05-01T07:50:00.000-07:00

Quote Of The Day: A morning greeting does not only mean 'Good Morning' ; it has a silent, loving message saying, 'I think of you when I wake up.'

im super confused!
i dont know if i should leave hym.
i know he loves me SUPER ALOT.
but my heart isnt really secured with hym.
eventhough he has given me the WORST shit before,
he has always been there for me too.
i dont want to hurt hym.

&& i know of the saying ;
never leave the one who LOVES YOU for the one YOU LOVE,
cos the one YOU LOVE migh leave you for the one THEY LOVE.
you get it?
you do, right!
*im beginning to merepek.*

tag replies
;; mrs farwan: i love you too larh sheyy! im back safe and sound(:
;; syasya: thanks darling. you too ; stay pretty<33
;; twisted: will re-link you ASAP. miss ya!
;; kasilah: HAHA! got it as a gift ; lucky me(:
;; aifaa ♥: yeahh. i wanna buy a new one too. but dont know which type now.

slipper(:

2007-04-24T06:46:00.000-07:00

Quote Of The Day: To love and be loved is the best thing in life

okay! i've finally worn a HAVAIANAS slipper(:
i'm too excited to blog.
HAHA!
here are the pictures.

the BAG(:

the SLIPPER(:(:

the BAG & SLIPPER(:(:(:

only WE know <33

and last but not least,
here a picture of me
waiting for my FOOD (;

i know i look damn lame & pathetic.
HEHE!

;; to SOMEONE: whats the point of staying & waiting for a guy DESPITE knowing the fact that hes attached right now? i mean even if he was in the wrong to do the sweet talkings with you when he was having a time off with his girlfriend, cant you just forget it and move on? why is it so hard? you know hym for only afew days but yet you're clinging on to hym still as if he's your ex boyfriend. cmon okay. hes ALREADY ATTACHED is gonna celebrate his ANNIVERSARY like super soon. but whatever it is, suits yourself. i cant and wont stop you. you're matured enough to think for yourself.

;; to SPIDERMAN 3: here CrUnChY eArTh KiD & YaNnA comes!!

huahuahua!

forevermore

2007-04-20T21:05:00.000-07:00

Quote Of The Day: If loving YOU with al my heart is a crime, i'll plead GUILTY(:

mama gave me a Philipine Movie to watch. Jericho Rosales & Kristian Hermosa is acting in the show larh sheyy. how i love to see them. haha! && i kinda fell in love with the song. which chorus has this words.

I just cant believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just cant compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore

okayy larhh. shall stop lovey dovey for now. im out!

PS: happy SEVEN months to Na[Z]ri <33

fatty bomb bomb

2007-04-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

Quote Of The Day: it's one thing to turn a friend into a lover ; but it's completely different to try to turn a lover into a friend.

working in the morning shift has been great larh sheyy.
have been having heavy breakfast this few dayss.
&& beleive it or not,
i went cycling yesterday.
haha!
but now my ass hurtss.
GRR!
short post larh for todayy.

PS: happy 15th months to FARAZ! <333
** cant wait for 28((:

bloated(:

2007-04-15T23:10:00.000-07:00

Quote Of The Day: i may not be God's gift to men ; but i'm God's gift to ONE man.

im so full after eating at banquet with family during lunch & kfc with bibiq's family for dinner. shall let the pictures do all the talking.

in the toilet at HFC ; with ATHIRA

on the way to KFC ; with SYAHIRAH

my shoulder brings happiness to her head(:

i had KFC's new MELTS ; thats what they call it.

some lame picture SYAHIRAH got me to take ; she says he's hawt. hmm.

okayy people. im out of here. gonna go tobed NOW. as im working morning shift tomorrow. nights people!lovess(:

sucky saturday.

2007-04-14T22:25:00.000-07:00

today was such a draggy day! i've always hated saturdays. especially those saturdays when i dont hit town. it bores me to be staying at home. and do nothing except for rot.

butbutbut. it was mama to the rescue. she brought us to Geylang. haha! left at 1800 and cabbed down. went to nen aisyah's shop to slack. it was 2130 when we decided to make a move cos athira was already sleepy. cabbed back & now here i am blogging. am gonna leave youwith the pictures i took with my bitch ; athira(:

when us girls got nothing better to do(:

pathetic me ; sepak, can? haha!

down the escalator ; to 7ELEVEN

down the escalator AGAIN ; now to window shop(:

its slacking time. yay!

dont you just adore us(: && we're NOT twins, okay. she's SIX YEARS YOUNGER than me.

when bredome strikes

2007-04-11T10:28:00.000-07:00

i've gained 1kg?
like WTH!
i dont like being heavy.
its like *toot*
forget it!
lets talk about yesterday.

accompanied mama & athira to clementi ;
that mangkuk athira had to visit the doctor,
as she sprained her ankle and it was BAD.
went there, she visited the doctor and done!
had our lunch at Pizza Hut.
*maner aku tak gain 1kg*

had Beef lasagne with their mushroom soup and a pepsi ;
while athira had spaghetti with their mushroom soup and a pepsi.
pluslpus, we added Garlic Bread & the drumlets on our menu.
thats alot(:

bus home and i fell asleep on the sofa.
huahuahua.
woke up and went over to nen's place.
had rice with Daging masak kicap now.
(:
layan-ed the kids for awhile and took my weight.
it showed 4_ ; i was so mangkuk!

enough!
im off now.
much love, people!

PS: happy monthsary to Ms. Zura & Mr. Smurf which fell yesterday.
&& to Aisy[A]zlan too ; but theirs is tomorrow.

so yeah. thats about it <333

runaway love

2007-04-08T01:40:00.000-07:00

♥ MY runaway LOVE <333

okayy people!!
im finally back into the blogging world.
and i'm motivated to blog only now.
reason being,
im patiently wayting for R to text me after his shower.
&&& for your info, R is not R_ _H_ N.
this R is someone from the past.
iknowheknowyoudontknow(:

the past with R_ _H_N is beginning to be forgotten.
aint gonna cry because its over,
but instead smile because it happened.
this relationship has really taught me alot.
no matter how long you've been dating that someone ;
if you both are not fated,
it wont work out still.
you will eventually break-up.

so, now is the time for me to start anew.
and i thank God for giving me R.
who has never fail to be my bestfriend ;
for me to share my thoughts with.
and givng me the strengths i need to face life.
its time for me to think ahead
and never turn back to look at the past.
for the more i do,
the harder it is to move on.
its time to tell my mind ;
"STOP looking back, Nur Farlyanna!!
its bad for your health."

so yeah.
have been talking to R about life,
past, present & future.
and it seems like R understands me, my wants and my needs.
but we're not gonna pin our hopes on RELATIONSHIP for now.
come to think of it,
we're only NINETEEN.
we've got a lonngg way to go.
to see the world and people around us.
so now, its FRIENDSHIP & US(:

truly blessed to have R in my life.
dear God,

please dont take R away from me just yet(:
now, im gonna reply tags
and end this entry with a pix aitess.

tag replies
twisted: heyyy. asal no my link2? link tauu! take care!!
;; you will be linked soon, dear. you take care too.

nana: omgd! i lovvve this song. lol. and it so remind me of me and ___. bahhh, i miss him sia. lol.
;; hehe! we share the same reason for liking this song. miss ya, hunzz!

kasilah: oh. aizad. patutlah u ask me who is he. lol. tk knal uh dier.
;; jangan cakap tak kenal, nampak pon tak pernah. cos he's no longer studying there. haha! salah info arhh.

natra: boo! link me link me!!
;; i will link you soon.

♥ faa` -kasilah: KASILAH!! hot eh, budak tuu? XDD haha! TAGGED .
;; mentel punyer adek! aku bilang aliff baru kau tawu ehkk. haha!

AZZYshazzy: sweetheart, a change in my url. relink okayss. <33
;; soon aites.

aifa: IM TH 95TH to hit your site. hehehs. dropping to say hi.
;; hi to you too. hehe(:

im finally done.
and to end it off,
here's a pix of me with my steamy eyes waiting for R.
HAHA!

aizad...

2007-03-31T12:05:00.000-07:00

went shopping at sheng siong with mom, dad, grannie & baby bro last night ; guess who i saw there.

IT WAS HYM LARHH.

hehehe.

2007-03-24T11:45:00.000-07:00

HEY PEOPLE!
PLEASE KIDLY TAG MY BOARD AND LEAVE YOUR LINKS.
thank you!

fun!

2007-03-10T11:30:00.000-08:00

im super bored and is out of words to blog! butbut. i took lotsa pictures. so, lets let the pictures shine aites.

took with hym otw home

OUR watches <333

SWEETness.

NAna the NAnny (:

its ME & the TIGER (;

ps: here are some ADDITIONAL pictures taken while goreng-ing hot dog roll with my one and only abang ((:

BEFORE

IN THE PROCESS

AFTER (:

okay darlings! im outta here. gonna prepare for workie. dont miss me yet aites. but if you do, find me on my cellphone (: much love!

shopping spree (:

2007-03-07T10:50:00.000-08:00

went shopping with BIBIQ & SYZ ATHIRA after work yesterday. walked the whole shop for almost 2 hours and we were the last customer to get out from the shop. haha! from the walk, i bought for myself FIVE tops ; and ONE bottom. ((: lets allow the pictures to do the talking.

and wolla! im done updating the pics. && i said it was FIVE tops when you can only see FOUR is becuase i merged number FOUR&FIVE. oraitess. im outta here. gonna prepare for work. ciasozz.

ps: wish me luck for my btt tomorrow!

(:

2007-03-04T22:44:00.000-08:00

been m.i.a for soooo long & my blog has been left by itself. the reason is not because of being busy but its just plain lazy. (:

& im here blogging just to say "i've got myself a new pair of slippers!" here are the picturess ((:

THE TOP

THE BOTTOM

THE FULL VIEW

&&&

i've gottten for myself the new ADIDAS watch ((:

so in ♥ with the slippers & watch.

ps: for other infos, please visit http://precious-ones.blogspot.com for whatver i did over the weekened was with her (:

eww! jerks!

2007-02-28T00:10:00.000-08:00

as quoted by sis in law, some 'low class & uncivilised' person just tagged my board uttering some shits about me&hym. well. sorry to say, i've got no time to tolerate you&your shits. plusplus, they are pure nonsense. GET A LIFE OKAY, handsome! eew ; what a name.

ps: happy 10 months. much ♥

how i wish

2007-02-21T13:05:00.000-08:00

i'm choking on the words i didn't get to say
& pray i get the chance one day.

i still think you'll be there like before.

FAITHFULLY i trace your name while you sleep
& it's the only true comfort i feel.

♥ some things the heart won't listen to ; im still holding out for you ♥

suckss!

2007-02-20T14:52:00.000-08:00

not having the mood to do anything really sucks to the max!

;; broE1&sis-in-law: happy 13th months lovelies! everlasting love to you both! <33
;; nir[a]zraouf: happy 9th months! miss you people!
;; na[z]ri: happy 5th months to you!

I MISS YOU, MY LOVE!

ps: OUR next target is the Portable Sony Playstation! any cheap ones? (:

fcuk it, boy!

2007-02-17T14:15:00.000-08:00

that picture showed it all,
you had your hand behind her shoulder.
was i supposed to just shuddup?
was i in the wrong to have questioned you?
was i even in the wrong to have felt jealous?
when i asked you those questions,
you told me to just forget it.
FCUK YOU BOY!
what do you take me for?
a doll with no feelings?
i know now i'm no one special to you.
especially not at times you're enjoying yourself.
who am i to you anyway?
just some bitch you own?
or maybe someone top on your list when it comes to breaking hearts?
i don't understand this.
i try to make you feel special everytime i can.
so why cant you play ur part?
it isn't that difficult you know?
okay,
so maybe sometimes i don't give you space to breathe,
but heck,
i still do okay?
i want you to be happy.
and sometimes maybe im too hard on you.
but you know i care.
if not i wouldnt be calling frequently.
if not i wouldnt even still be holding on to you.
please i'm begging you.
just this once.

the best love ;
is one that awakens the soul
& makes us reach for more.
that plants a fire in our heart
& brings peace to our mind.
thats what you've given to me
& i hope to give you for the rest of your life.

HVD

2007-02-14T07:43:00.001-08:00

ITS ME WITH THE ROSE (:
&&
IM SO IN LOVE WITH CUPCAKESS!
<33

ps: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY & HAPPY BIRTHDAY EX-BOYFRIEND!

lost and fond?

2007-02-13T19:56:00.000-08:00

i've not been eating properly this few days. and it seems like only God knows how hurt i am deep inside. im losing my appetite ; having no mood to do anything or even talk to people around me. it sucks! i've tried my very best to keep myself occupied but nothing seems to be working.

my mood has been so down this few days too. & im making people so worried. the problem lies with me ; not being strong enough. i keep praying hard day and night. hoping that everything will be just fine. but i guess its just me ; i have to be strong and overcome all the obstacles in life.

;; mengapa kau pergi di saat begini ; dikala hatiku terlukis namamu.

tags reply

2007-02-11T21:39:00.000-08:00

REPLY TO THE TAGS

Z I E: hey babe! stay calm n think aites. It will make u feel beta. Jus think abt the good tyms u guys been 2gether. it werks fer me & hope u 2..
-> thanx darls for those encouraging words. i will look on the bright side of this relationship and pray it will make me feel better. but having you by my side is good enough. thanks once again. (:

twisted: jealousy can kill i agree. i was caught in the same situation as ur FEB 8 post. but love needs give and takes. jealousy must have the limits too. think it thru. smiles! take care!
->haizz. maybe what you said is true afterall. but i still cant accept what i saw. menyakitkan hati. but im gonna think things really through and aint gonna let a picture ruin my everything. thanks to you too!!

aDeQ: im blur syzz !! tell me !!
-> well. i'll clear my mind from everything and will tell you only then aitess. soon hopefully. (: much lovve!

you leave me hanging

2007-02-10T12:19:00.000-08:00

dear you.

i just want you to know that your actions are really leaving me hanging, not knowing of my next step ; to continue or to end. our time off has really set my mind thinking of lots of things ; eg. the happy times we saw and also the had times we faced. i'm not trying to say "i no longer love you" but the pictures. they are killing me. maybe what sister-in-law said is true afterall ; "dont let a picture ruin your everything". but im just afraid that history will repeat itself if i were to give you a second chance. i gotta admit that im a fickle minded person. & thats making matter worst. at one time, i want you back ; and at another, i dont. just let me think it through again.

after all thats been said, you just give me few more days and i'll give you a FINAL decision. a NO-TURNING BACK decision.

ps: i miss you so.

i wish. i wish. i wish.

2007-02-08T04:20:00.000-08:00

to that someone who unoeinoe about my situation, DO keep it to yourself okayy. i turned to you cos i had that special trust in you. so, dont let me down aitess.

sometimes, i just wish that i was dumb ; having the lack of ability to speak. cos it seems that everything i say will make things go wrong. && maybe if my heart stopped beating, it woudnt hurt this much.

i did ask you the question of "how would you have felt if ..." and your answer was "angry!" then why did you do it to me? i dont think you knew how i was feeling the very moment i saw the picture! i dont give a damn regarding your whatever "ship" you're having with her. but fcuk larh! you know how strong my jealousy is right! it can even kill me.

i've tried my very best to ignore the wild thoughts i have in mind but it seems so hard. hours have passed but still, im thinking about it. i know i should be trusting you and not doubting you. but how would you feel if it REALLY happened to you? i'm sure you'd feel the same too! its killing me!

ps: how i wish whatever i saw was only a dream ; not a reality.

i was right!

2007-02-06T23:05:00.000-08:00

Umbrella

Ramalan Ku Benar Belaka

Hingga ke saat ini
Berbagai persoalan
Tak henti melanda
Buntu... ku memikirkannya

Kau memilih diri ku
Di atas dasar apa
Apakah kerna cinta
Atau... pelepas sepi cuma

Seumpama... dedaunan...
Yang telah gugur bertaburan
Membiarkan... ranting dimamah usang

Apakah semua itu
Akan terjadi pada ku
Andainya benar
Maka tepatlah apa yang diramalkan

Waktu bersama mu
Banyak benar kenangan yang kita ciptakan... bersama
Dan satu darinya... engkau bersyahdu
Bahawa aku takkan kehilangan mu
Susah payah kita... semai benih cinta
Merempuh dugaan akhirnya kau tinggalkan
Susah payah kita... semai benih cinta
Merempuh dugaan... akhirnya kau tinggalkan
Sia-sialah ku bina istana cinta
Andai insan lain... dihati mu... bertakhta
Hingga ke saat ini... ku masih terkenangkan
Saat-saat yang indah... nyata kesudahan aku parah

happy birthday baby!

2007-02-06T10:50:00.000-08:00

i got this gift yesterday from the most precious person in my life ; MY MAN. the birthday boy came to me with a bag from Teng Huat Jewellery. i thought he had something for work in that bag but i was so shocked to see the mickey mouse box. *shy* he then told me to close my eyes and he wore it for me. i wanted to cry larhh. -but yana mantain jekk- haha! im loving being so loved larhh! (:

PS: thanks baby for the gift! && i hope you like the ones i gave to you. LOVE YOU LOADS LARHH!!

i love you

2007-02-01T00:30:00.000-08:00

the slide on the previous entry goes out specially to the love of my life. its been a long and bumpy journey with you for the past NINE months. but i thank God for bringing us thus far. the smies, laughter & tears are those sweet memories i'll never forget. im sure we'd be able to see forever baby! <33

There will only be
My love for you and yours for me
A lifetime now full of joy and love
Guided by the one above
A lifetime full of happy tomorrows
Lots of joy and occasional sorrows
But through the few there will always be
Someone to cheer you ;
& That someone is ME.

words cant say what love can do,
i'll be there for you. (:

;; syz athira: happy 13th birthday bebey! wait for your belated prezzie okay. tanak takper. (: love youu larhh!

for you, my love

2007-01-30T02:12:00.000-08:00

SHITTY 9 MONTHS

2007-01-29T15:15:00.000-08:00

NINE MONTHS = THE END.

NO FURTHER QUESTIONING.

THANK YOU (:

nine is the number

2007-01-27T01:05:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NINE MONTHS BABY!
an ADVANCED one it is.
by ONE day.
(:

for hearing my thoughts, understanding my dreams and being my best friend, for filling my life with joy, i'd like to say "I LOVE YOU".

im lost!

2007-01-25T14:22:00.000-08:00

goshh ; im so hating this moments...
cos honestly speaking,
i really feel like being single again.
but to come to think of it again,
am i just gonna let go of the relationship im in now?
which i have been nurturing for sooo long and been through lotsa shits when being in it.
yelahh.
you people can say "belom setahun."
but styll, i went through alot!
from rejections to family conflicts to running away from home.
thats the negative sides it is.
haizz.

&
i just dont know what is wrong with me?
why am i like this? why honey baby?
why?
i know that you truly love me and im not saying im doubting your love.
but my nights are spent on wondering about you.
wild questions often goes running through my mind.
questions like...
why do i often go doing the wrong things at the wrong time?
why am i even saying the wrong words till it hurts you emotionally?
why am i so stupid to be doing all this?
have i given you all the love that you need?
why do i feel like im losing you to someone else?
will i be able to live on if our love fails?
why is that insecurity feeling suddenly in me?
am i holding on to our love too strongly?
or is it that im just taking our love as an on-off thingy?
why is it that you can treat me super nicely at one moment and super horribly at another?
do i really deserve to be loved by a guy like you?
argh!!

&&
im missing the old you.
the guy who'd ring me up just to tell me he misses me ;
the guy who'd stay up at night just because i cant sleep ;
the guy who'd hold my hand everytyme we're out together ;
the guy who'd cuddle me orund his arms whenever im feeling cold ;
the guy who'd lend me his shoulders if i needed a place to cry on.

lovee!

2007-01-24T00:15:00.000-08:00

hohoho! thanks to my dearest Mister Noh Alam Shah for scoring during just now's match thus giving Singapore a 1-1 draw with Malaysia (:

TAG REPLIES
;; ZIE: hey babe! i miss you too! i've bumped onto you the other day. i'll date you soon aitess. lovee!
;; stephiee: lifes as usual. nothing new. hehe.
;; FUMIKOfatin: step Jepon pulak adek aku nie. ELEVEN days? aper sheyy? (:
;; ^{g}eRi^: heyloh! thanks for tagging.
;; aDeQ: hohoho! no worries. im gonna change mine soon. =p

[I LOVE MY SUPERMAN]

i dont think in in love cos im sure i am (:

2007-01-22T07:20:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS GUY HERE BUCKETFULL LOADS!!

todays date, 220107. which means SIX MORE DAYS TO GO AND ITS OUR NINE MONTHS!! ((:
&& ELEVEN DAYS TO HIS BIRTHDAY!! but yet i havent thought of anything to get hym. otak buntu babe!!

amazed with the distance we could fly and really thank God for bringing us thus far. without hym, i bet my life would be insanely lost. not knowing which direction to head for in life. thanks dear for all the sacrifices you've done ; for all the love you've rained me with. && for being super patient tolerating me and my tantrums. (:

&& im honoured okay being the FIRST ever girlfriend of yours to be celebrating your birthday with you. hope to be the FIRST & LAST! i promise you its gonna be the best day of your life aitess. a day of only you & me. hohoho!

im out of here! this is a 'semangat seminit' nyer entry. haha! much love loveliess.

;; FARAZ: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! or should i say, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to Muhammad Farwan & Nur Azlindah. more to come loveliess (:
;; Nir[a]zrouf: HAPPY EIGHT MONTHS! cheers to you guyss. (:

i turn to you

2007-01-19T20:20:00.000-08:00

When I'm lost, in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around, yes

And when I'm down you're there
Pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got
For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
I turn to you, yes

When I lose, the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach
The sky again, I can do, anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night, yeah

For a shield (for a shield), from the storm (from the storm)
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
(For a love to keep me safe and warm)
I turn to you (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength), to be strong
For the will to carry on, uh
For everything you do
I turn to you, yeah, ohhh

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who, I can run to, ohh I...
Turn to you...ohhh yeah

For a shield , from the storm
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
(To keep me safe and warm, yeah)
I turn to you (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength), to be strong
For the will to carry on, oh ohh
For everything you do (everything you do)
For everything that's true
For everything you do, ohh
For everything that's true
I turn to you

[for everything thats true, i turn to you]

thank God i found you

2007-01-18T13:03:00.000-08:00

[I REALLY THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME MY MAN]

mariah)
I would give up everything
Before Id separate myself from you
After so much suffering
Ive finally found a man thats true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby Im so thankful
I found you

(joe)
I would give you everything
Theres nothing in this world I wouldnt do
To ensure your happiness
Ill cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I cant survive
I dont wanna try
If youre keeping me warm each and every night
Ill be all right
Cause I need you in my life

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you (Im begging you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby Im so thankful
I found you

-bridge- (mariah & joe)
See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
That we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And Id go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby Im so thankful
I found you

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby Im so thankful
I found you

(mariah)
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby Im so thankful I found you

(:

2007-01-16T00:05:00.000-08:00

[ SIAPA SEBENARNYA YANG MENJADI PUNCA PERPISAHAN KITA ]

i dont know what is happening to my relationship with MY MAN. at times, we are the most suitable couple ; but at aonther, we can be the worst enemies. haizz. but despite it all, it was so sweet of MY MAN to get me egg tarts from Prima Deli. ; as he knew i wanted it. (:

&& he went to the shop as early as NINE in the morning just to reserve the tarts. howw sweet. the timing was stated on the receipt. hohoho! MY MAN is the best.

i'm done with the entry! wanna talk to hym. so missing hym. *padahal kat kerje baru meet* kwang kwang kwang! ciaoszz~

love note.

2007-01-15T00:35:00.000-08:00

was sitting on the bed last night & forcing myself to sleep when i suddenly came up with this. now that my relationship with MY MAN is shaking pretty bad, i came up with "a letter to the girl who'd take over my place in his heart if ever our relationship were to come to an end."

to YOU,
there are just a couple of things that i thought you should know. i learned these things while i was the lady of your guy.
[x] DONT be frightened if he showers much more love on you than you had expected.
[x] DONT be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have met.
[x] DONT be scared about the fact that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly.
[x] he would REMEBER everything you will say.
[x] he is very EASILY hurt, especially by words you say carelessly.
[x] a KISS and an "I love you" can soften his heart.
[x] MOST of the time, he won't tell you what he is feeling.
[x] but, just look into his beautiful BROWN eyes and you will be able to see into him.
[x] PLEASE dont hurt him ; cos a worse feeling any girl would feel is to know that someone else have the boy she love and that someone else have hurt him.
[x] no matter how mad he is with you during a fight, TRUST me when i say "he will always keep his temper and will never curse at you or call you names"
[x] DONT hold a tight grip on him, as he can be a very independent person. but no matter how busy he could be, he will always make time for you so please DONT take him for granted.
[x] eventhough he will never admit it, you must really know that he likes to be surprised.
[x] he is so sweet and amazing that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart.
[x] he is an indeed a very encouraging person ; encouraging you to chase your dream and never stop.
[x] he likes it when you kiss his ear.
[x] the sight of how your hands fit perfectly, it would seem as if nothing in the world could hurt you because he is there.
[x] his words to you are just so true ; when he puts his arms around you and says "you are the girl i truly love", you will know, there isn't any guy in the world better than him.
[x] SO, DONT ever let him go cos i promise you that you will regret it for the rest of your life.

always look on the bright side of life

2007-01-14T23:40:00.000-08:00

first and foremost, im really very sorry for not updating. the reason is not that im busy or what. its just because im so plain lasy! (: so, let me recall what happened since i've been away. but it will sure take some times as i am talking to MY MAN. <33

i've began to realise that life and love is not always like a rainbow that shines on us every single day. there is a for sure times when you feel the world is on your shoulder. close peeps can be there to motivate you to be looking on the brighter side of life. but SOME are just 'sweet talkers'. they seem to only know what to say but they dont try putting themself in our shoes. whatever larh okay!

my relationship with MY MAN have been shaking VERY bad. the word 'time off' & 'break up' is always spoken by us. im so hating it. it occurs because of some minor problems. but no worries. we're still together ; but not as strong as last time. just have to pray hard that it doesnt really come to an end any soon.

im in no mood to blog anymore! im gonna end my entry here aitess. but before i go, i'd like to wish "HAPPY BELATED ONE MONTH TO waw[A]yie" ,semoga korang kekal forever okayy. much love!! <33

LG Phone

2007-01-03T07:25:00.000-08:00

its 0702 and im already up! WTH! biler aku sekolah, punyer susah nak bangon... GRR! but its okay. cos it gives me the chance to update. ((:

since i plan to get something for my darling FATIIN, i have to force myself to like another phone which has a lower budget and im glad to say my eyes has been glued to the LG KG 800. here are the features and colours available.

FEATURES:
Dimensions: 95×48x15.2mm
Weight: 83g (with standard battery)
Display: 265K Color TFT, 176 x 220 Pixels
Standard Battery: 800mAh
Standby Time: Up to 200hrs
Talk Time: Up to 6hrs
Technology: GSM
Frequency: 900/1800/19000 MHz (Tri-band)
Data Transmission: GPRS class 10
**but here are the link to a better understanding of the features--
http://www.gsmarena.com/lg_kg800-1533.php#

THE COLOURS:
LG Chocolate White Chocolate

LG Chocolate Black

LG Chocolate Pink

**there is another colour actually ; something like maroon. but im having trouble trying to upload it. FUGG!~

im out of here! much love loveliess.

phonezie! here i come!

2006-12-29T20:48:00.000-08:00

im gonna get a new phone very soon! ((: but unfortuntely, it isnt the phone of my dream ; Nokia 3250. im gonna get a motorola R AZR V3i ; the thicker one. haha! yay. cant wait larh bebey!

8th

2006-12-28T00:52:00.000-08:00

today's the 8th.
love you, baby.

you're my precious gift from God ; a heaven sent <33

frust!!

2006-12-25T22:25:00.000-08:00

IT SEEMS LIKE THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN YELL OUT MY THOUGHTS! ITS SO ANNOYING SITTING AT HOME AND HAVING PARENTS WHO DONT REALLY KNOW OR UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOUR WANTS AND NEEDS ; EXCEPT FOR TELLING YOU TO BE WHO THEY WANT YOU TO BE. && I'M SO FUCKED-UP OF BEING AT HOME. INI TAK KENE, ITU TAK KENE. MATAER WITH DEKNI SALAH, KELUAR NGAN DEKTU SALAH! JUST WHAT THEY WANT FROM ME? AKU LARI RUMAH, ORANG CARIK, AKU DUDOK RUMAH, IM FEELING LIKE THIS. I TRULY KNOW IM STILL YOUR DAUGHTER! BUT PLEASE ARH! AKU DAH 18 ; SAMPAI BILER KAU NAK CONTROL HIDOP AKU? KASI AKU FREEDOM SIKET LARHH! TOLONG LARH EHKK!

ps: im BLOODY sick AND tired of LIFE!

N70 VS Nokia 3250

2006-12-24T10:20:00.000-08:00

so, mom managed to get an N70 phone for her birthday. itupon because dad got it as a FIRST prize in his company's D&D. how cool right ((: so now its my turn to really talk to dad about getting the 3250 ; phone pusing-pusing. ohwee!

i'm outta here to siap for workk. cioaszz!

PS: ZURA! im still fickle minded. its sill complicated netween me and hym.

thats when i LOVE you

2006-12-18T00:50:00.000-08:00

ASLYN LYRICS

That's When I Love You

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly
And when you're mad cause you lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
you can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you
A little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love you I love you
More then you know
And when you forgot that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you ,I love you anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
you can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love you when nothing baby, nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you , when I love you no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what

i just cant seem to sleep ; cos im having a very bad flu with both of my nose blocked. bloody son of a bitch! oky okay! before i get anymore vulgary, i better run from here. ciaoszz!

PS: FRIDAY is just YOU and ME, baby!! really LOOKING forward to it <33

phone phone phone

2006-12-17T01:30:00.000-08:00

since mom REALLY doesnt want to come out ANY cash in order for me to get the new phone ; i can FORGET about my Motorola Razr V3x & Nokia 3250. because i dropped by Tiong Bahru Plaza in the afternoon just now to check out on the prices and it shocked me to the max! for Motorola Rzr V3x, i have to pay $158 for the phone+$36.90 for the sim card+$25.20 monthly subsciption fee. bloody mangkok! && for Nokia 3250 ; also known as the "telephone pusing-pusing" which is also my phone idaman, i'll have to top up another $200 plus. haizz! there goes my dream of getting the phone down the longkang.

BUT WAIT! mom says i can get the Nokia 6280 instead. its a slide phone. HAPPY STILL. cos i've been wanting a flip or a slide phone to use. ((: yay! so Nokia 6280, here i come BABY!!

okay okay. enough talking about phone. and i'm off to chat now. see ya loveliess!

PURE BOREDNESS

2006-12-15T21:20:00.000-08:00

IM JUST SO LAZY TO BLOG!

& I'VE BEEN EATING ALOT FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS!

&& HAVE BEEN CRYING TOO!

&&& I'M GONNA RUN NOW BEFORE PEOPLE GET IRRITATED READING THIS.

TILL THEN,

BYE EVERYONE!!

PS: WAITING FOR MUHAMMAD RAIHAN BIN ROSLAN TO CALL is TAKING FOREVER! SHIT YOU!

out of the blue, momsie suddenly asked me to get myself a new phone. butbutbut, i have no idea what phone to get for myself. thought of getting the motorola razr v3x but the problem is i dont know which colour to choose from the pix below.

or maybe...
i could get for myself a nokia 3250 phone ; also known as 'the pusing-pusing phone. ((: but again, theres a wide range of colours to choose from.

COMMENTS PEOPLE!!!
but mom doesnt want to come out any cash for it. please mom! i loved the Nokia 3250 more than the Motorola Razr V3X. && also, i've admired the phone since dulu. hmm. please say yes to me buying it mom! PLEASE!

Wish Upon A Star

2006-12-15T16:40:00.000-08:00

since its only SEVEN days to HER birthday, FARLYANNA has decided to come up with a personal WISHLIST so readers have a clue on what to get her for HER birthday. ((:

[1] New handphone
[2] NEW Adidas watch [PLEASE BRO! X)]
[3] FBT Shorts
[4] Lenses
[5] Shades
[6] OP Flip Flops
[7] Billabong Wallet
[8] New Levi's Jeans
[9] Belt From Meridien
[10] Dress From This Fashion

GET WELL SOON BRO!!

bored.

2006-12-14T01:50:00.000-08:00

its now the holidays and i get freaking bored very easily! but still, im lucky to have work to occupy my time. && also thanks to raihan for always being there to keep me company whenever im bored. mashey ehkk ((:

im tired from work and i cant think of anything to blog about. i'm off to bed then. byess!

PS: EIGHT days to go and im legally legal ((: TAKE NOTE OKAY <33

holy shit!

2006-12-07T12:22:00.000-08:00

am i not fated to have the phone or what? the latest news i heard is i have to be at least 21 to open a new line. holy shit!

i aint gonna talk about it anymore. im off to prepare for work. BYE!

problems and future

2006-12-07T10:03:00.000-08:00

alahmak ZIE ; my days hasnt been going ~~well~~ for me larh. and that why i didnt blog. but nevermind. i'll try to make it as long as possible okay. just for your sake.

my relationship with boyfie is shacking yet again ; problems of the past is haunting each others mind & we're beginning to drift pretty far apart! but its not a situation to declare any break-up. minor problems being made big. with my sensitiveness. not in the mood to talk about it.

&& today is my LAST day of school. and i've got no bloody idea what to do next. few things in mind but lotsa obstacles. (:
eg.
[1] be a kindergarten teacher
OR
[2] a childcare taker
OR
[3] a private 'o' candidate
OR
[4] just sit and lepaks at home. (X

PS: i saw an advertisement on yana's blog about freelance camp instructor ; thought of giving it a try too but i'll be missing boyfie when i'm away. lol.

seven monthsary

2006-12-01T20:02:00.000-08:00

* my relationship with my pillar of strentgh turned seven months two days ago, dated 281106. really thank God for bringing us thus far. && i know seven months aint a short period of time. we've met our frequent ups and downs and i truly know i've pissed you off like 221205022804313 number of times. but i'm glad to still have you right by my side standing tall by me ; lifting me up when im down. thanks hubby for showing me the true meaning of SUPER patience. and also, for being a great pillar of strength ; the One picking me up when i fall and never fails to give me words of wisdom. a lover sweeter than you is someone i'll never find! <33
not to forget, this years' the first ever rayer i spent with you and im sure there is more to come. the feeling is just so "aww" larhh baby. && friends who know me well enough should know how easily i get bored with my partner, but its NOT with you. i swear the feeling i hold for you is super diferent until i cant find a word to describe it.
PS: i may be talking to you using 'kau&aku' but trust me when i say that you're still the one and only guy i love and will always be. && nothing can ever change what you mean to me. love you loads baby!! <33

* i finally found the love of a lifetime___.

// CREDITS TO NUR AZLINDAH BINTE AZLAN <33

2006-11-27T23:55:00.000-08:00

http://www.myheritage.com

internet access simply suckz

2006-10-19T10:51:00.000-07:00

thje internet connection really sucks !
being the reason i cant blog ;
&& even if i can,
i think i wont .
=p

in school now .
feeling so bored that i've decided to blog .
lets see what shall i crap about today .

been lepak-ing with my bestie .
woohoo !
more to come next year ;
but after march .
she should know (:

"people change"
i've learnt the meaning behind this sentence after one incident .
you never know when people can just stab you from the back .
"your best friend might be your worst enemy."

PS: DONT BRING THE WHOLE WORLD DOWN JUST BECASUE OG ONE THING !

ILOVEYOUBABY!

shit happen

2006-10-10T11:20:00.000-07:00

my relationship with boyfie is shaking pretty bad ;
torn apart i should say .
but i'm not saying that we are separated.
HEAVENLY NO.
we are not separated ;
but we are not spending time together.
&& not even talking .

and should i blame myself for the incident .
i don't know .
i just wish that he could understand the situation .
i guess i just got to let hym see and understand it hymself .

sometimes, there things that we can't explain.
&& there are tymes he makes me feel lost & confused ;
as if outsiders understand my feeling better than he does .
shitx !

this is the problem about relationship.
feeling insecure and etc.
he wishes me to be able to tell hym all my problems .
but what he doesnt know is that,
my problems might hurt hym .
&& i definately dont wish to do that .

problems of the past is returning .
i wonder when will it all go away ?
but whatever it is .
please don't jump to conclusion .
Thank You .

071006

2006-10-07T22:52:00.000-07:00

"why hurt ourself being in a relatinonship when we know we can be happy without them"
as quoted by muammar gaddafi (:
this guy is really full of something .
i miss you arh bodoh !biler sekolah nak reopen nie ?!?

&&
time really flies larh ;
dah two weeks aku puaser .
which meanss . .
lagi two weeks dah RAYA !

yayness .
gonna buker with boyfie&family maybe next week .
really cant wait to wear same colour with boyfie !
((:

to end it off . . .
i'd like to say,

HAPPY 10TH MONTHSARY BEN&ZURA !
may you guys be together always ;
till the end of time .
love you girl !!

you're all i need ; my love, my valentine (:

2006-10-04T22:55:00.000-07:00

if there were no words
no way to speak
i would still hear you
if there were no tears
no way to feel inside i'd still feel for you .

and even if the sun refused to shine
even if romance ran out of rhyme
you would still have my heart until the end of time
you're all i need, my love, my Valentine. .

all of my life
i have been waiting for
all you give to me
you've opened my eyes
and shown me how to love unselfishly .

i've dreamed of this a thousand times before
in my dreams i couldn't love you more
i will give you my heart
until the end of time
you're all i need, my love, my Valentine .

and even if the sun refused to shine
even if romance ran out of rhyme
you would still have my heart until the end of time
'cause all i need is you, my Valentine .

you're all i need, my love, my Valentine .

shits !
now im addicted to this song (:
&& i've got my adidas watch .
bought a yellow one .
[LOVE blue]

VERY bad news

2006-10-03T00:22:00.000-07:00

&& now i've got this BLOODY bad news .
and that is,
my plans of doing things with my coming pay has to be cancelled .
cos i cant wait to buy my all time fav watch .
the adidas one .
maybe a blue one (:

dont !

2006-10-02T17:40:00.000-07:00

`` CONFESSION OF A BROKEN HEART___.

you promised and i waited .
waiting for the day you would come
&& fill those empty spaces once again .
you said every heart represented your love for me .
every heart meant each day was a meaningful one .
you said you'd be there for me when i needed you .
you said you will never ever break my heart .
but what happened ?
does this mean true love dont exist ?
i never wanna bid you goodbye .
be the old you, baby
&& come back to me .
i know this isnt true .
i need you ,
dont waste those hearts .
i'll never wanna forget those sweet memories .

[dont bid me goodbye baby .
i need you
&& you know i do .
those hearts,
are they just an illusion ?
i know you too love me,
as much as i love you .
dont leave me in the lurch .
tell me you dont mean it .
bring back the past
&& fill up those spces with hearts ]

AINT NO OTHER MAN

2006-10-01T23:46:00.000-07:00

its only the FIRST week of Ramadhan but yet GEYLANG is already super packed ! && i still think that GEYLANG is the best place to shop during the month of Ramadhan . i have not been to KAMPONG GLAM yet ; but what i heard from people is that "its such a bore down there" lol . shall check i out one day .

i really aint in the mood to blog ! && to end it off, i'd like to wish all kiddies "Happy Childrens Day ." & to my gfs and bfs taking their e.y.e, "All The Best Lovelies ."

five is the number

2006-09-28T23:39:00.000-07:00

woohoo !
i just cant wait for my next pay .
gonna do alot with it ;
as if theres no tomorrow (:

[1] highlight my hair ,
[2] date with NUR FATIN ATHIRA & KASLAH ,
[3] mani+pedi with sister-in-law ,
[4] && SHOPPING with my bestie ! !

woohoo !
im loving life being NUR FARLYANNA (:

[FIVE is the NUMBER]

bored

2006-09-27T22:06:00.000-07:00

im BORED !
here i am at home having my holidays ;
&& there my boyfie is in school .
*this is how boring life can get at times*

but NEVERMIND !
i cant wait for next month ;
cos i am going mani[+]pedi with my SISTER-IN-LAW .
*yayness*

heres some shoutouts to some people .
;; SITI NORFAIZURAH: hello darling ! im glad to see the bubbly you (: smile always for me yarhh . && congrats in having hym back into your life <33>
;; NUR FATIN ATHIRA: whoitts ! make sure you study for your PSLE ! do the family proud alrights . LOVE YA !
;; KASILAH: you too dear ! study hard for your PSLE . do PEBBLE,ROCK & MARBLE especially proud . <33
;; NUR AZLINDAH: HELLO (: i cant wait for next month ! i really cant . hehe (:
;; STEPHANIE: meet up soon babe ! youre being missed by ME !

tomoro is the TWENTY EIGHT (:

PS: am i really fat ? boyfie says i am ; but i checked my weight just now & its only 50 . hmm .

double happiness

2006-09-25T23:21:00.000-07:00

DOUBLE happiness for today !
cos ;
HADY MIRZA is OUR singapore idol .
BEE is so sweet .
his message to me
;; haha.. tk larh awak!2 dh wrong..awak pon ehk, jgn nk mengade-ngade gantung pat telepon jek..haha..n ur baju polo t colour pink n size S..sowie,no other size..

haha !
my boyfie is jealous .
qwang qwang qwang !

truth is

2006-09-24T14:14:00.000-07:00

was busily browsing for a new blogskin when i came across a blog which has this song as its background music . its entitled "truth is" and is sung by Fantasia . && when i read the lyrics, the only person who crosses my mind is Mr. Brown Eyes A.K.A Zulhelmy . and this is how the song goes .

Verse 1
Ran into an old friend yesterday
Caught me by surprise when he called my name
He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past
Talked for a while, I smiled and then
Said that he was seeing somebody and
Told me this was gonna last
Showing me her photograph
Hook
And all the feelings I thought were gone Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself

chorus
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is Wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still I love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is And it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still I love with you

Verse 2
We reminisce on the way things used to be
Shed a couple laughs, shed some memories
Talked about the things that changed
Some for good and some for bad
Then he said good-bye and he paid for brunch
Promised that we'd always keep in touch
Grabbed my bags and grabbed my furs, walked away and that was that
Hook
And all the feelings I thought were gone Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself

chorus
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is Wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still I love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is And it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still I love with you

Bridge
Now the truth is it hurts but I that the fault mines
‘Cuz I let him go
Tried to get over it but it's messed up he's not mine Because I know

chorus (2x)
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is Wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still I love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is And it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still I love with you
I just gotta be honest,
I guess, I-I guess, I’m still in love, in love, in love .

my all

2006-09-17T22:05:00.000-07:00

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

[Chorus:]
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

[Chorus]
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Give my all for your love
Tonight

2006-09-17T21:57:00.000-07:00

i wanna grow old with you .

2006-09-15T16:20:00.000-07:00

Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad
I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad
I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go
I know but Baby
I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you .

(:

2006-09-13T19:45:00.000-07:00

PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP ;
a close relationship between two persons in which sexual desire is non-existent .
this is the 'ship' im in with Muammar Gaddafi Bin Marzuki .
the guy who knows all my secrets of my life ;
the guy who has seen me through both the good and bad times ;
the guy who has been my pillar of strength when something goes wrong ;
the guy FRIEND who has seen me CRY ;
MY PARTNER IN CRIME :)

this guy rock my world to the max . even when he sucks at time . a good example is on TUESDAY dated 120906 . was supposed to meet at 0830 at bukit gombak MRT station and he only reached at 0935 . mak oii ! he followed the Indonesian time i guess . lol . rushed to BBDC for his motor pract lesson which was supposed to start at 0950 . but we sempat stopp by the cofeeshop as he wanted to get hymself a REDBULL . the ENERGY drink ;) and something funny happened . he ordered the drink and the auntie gave hym the cup too . he emptied the tin and poured the drink into the cup && shockingly walked towrds BBDC WITH the cup .

oh goshh ! *jatuh sakk saham gue* he took his lesson while i sat at the canteen waiting and watching . a guy who resembled FARHAN was seen there . i thought it was hym ; but think of it again, a person can only enrol when he/she turns 18 . so it cant be hym ; cos his birthday falls on SEPTEMBER 23RD. i remebered HIS birthday ;)

i waited and waited and waited tyll 1130 when AFY finally finished his practical . and guess what . out of so many people i can bump into when being there, i bumped into TAUFIQ . not the spore idol one of course . but a work friend of mine . told AFY and he went ; "ey YANA ! asal mataer kau ngan budak yang suker kau sumer TINGGI2 ." haha !

he booked his next practical lesson at 1545 and he went to smoke . bus-ed down to West Mall and AFY ate KFC . AFY was so gentlemen ; he accompanied me taking 852 to Yishun eventhough he wasnt attending the lesson . thanks ehkk ! i reached school at 1345 when my lesson started 45 minutes ago . *bluweks* i coudnt find my class so i sat at the admin office when i saw SITI and went home with her (:

;; forgive me if i over-reacted . i didnt mean any harm but the fact is im just so afraid of losing you . i remembered almost losing you in the past . and it drove me so crazy . so i dont want history to repeat itself . i simply hearts you so much . YOU ARE MY SOMEONE SPECIAL ; the one who lights up the dark road of my life . && i just couldnt ask for more .

wee wee wee

2006-09-11T19:10:00.000-07:00

since there's a problem signing in into MSN, i shall take this opportunity to BLOG . lets begin .

well . my life is so dull this few days and that is the reason i havent been blogging . i guess my schedule for this week is gonna be packed yet superb !

because i'll be . . .
* heading for BBDC with AFY tomorrow .
* catching little man with DIN on friday OR saturday .
* MORE TO COME .

okay . i'm so into this song !

Biarkan aku
Menjalin asmara
Dengannya yang ku cinta
Jangan ku dihalang
Walau pedang bukan penghalang
Gelora rindu
Buat ku merasa tersiksa
Jauh darinya
Andai ku punya sayap
Kau di bulan akan ku jelang

Kasihku dengarlah
Suara hatiku
Kata hati ini
Hanya dirimu seorang
Yang ku sayang

Kekasih tulis namaku
Di dalam diari hatimu
Kekasih setiap senyummu
Pengubat rindu di hatiku

Puisikan segala janji-janji kita
Bakar semua kepalsuan...

was i ?

2006-09-04T10:39:00.000-07:00

people say i have a strong sense of jealousy ? lets set it straight then . . .

was i in the WRONG to feel JEALOUS . . .
when ANOTHER girl held on to YOUR hand ?
was i in the WRONG to feel INSECURE . . .
when ANOTHER girl paid more attention to YOU ?
was i in the WRONG to feel LOST . . .
when MY BOYFRIEND wanted to sit in FRONT of ANOTHER girl ?

WAS I ? !

YOU anwswer those questions !

who knew ; NOBODY

2006-08-22T23:46:00.000-07:00

Who Knew ; by Pink

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right

CHORUS 1
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong
I know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

CHORUS 2
When someone said count your blessings now
'Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew

Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

CHORUS 3
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep you memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew

My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew
Who knew

kr & fr

2006-08-15T19:40:00.000-07:00

Olny srmat poelpe can raed tihs... Cnduolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy.

it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm.

Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

kewlness huh!
(:
and here i am patiently waiting for 2130.
only heaven knows.

*K&R ; F&R -

changes

2006-08-13T20:50:00.000-07:00

i insanely miss bitching around dover with my bestie!
a someone i'd refer as "my crazy 'lesbian' partner."
lol.
bitching tymes..
from the tymes at under void deck ;
creating havocs as if the world was ours.
to the tonning at each other cribx ;
dozing off only at 3 or 4 a.m.
to the lunch-ing ;
at jumbo or simply ikea's hotdog bun!
damn!
i really miss those tymes.
doing whatever shits we wanted.
and definately not paying any attention to our surroundings.
hahaha!
but i wonder why all the sudden change?
*i sit and wonderr*

done!

2006-08-12T13:43:00.000-07:00

"when you feel like giving up ; just remember all the reasons why you held on to begin with."

super nice right this quote ; i like..! ekeke. kkays. lets get back to business. updating of this blog after being M.I.A for few days. (:

M.I.A simply because LOTS of things have been happening ; both positive and negative. at the top of it all, i miss the times i spent with my chinese boyfriend. & not to forget, my bestie! whom i feel like im beginning to lose. ; after the presence of SOMEONE into her life. i aint gonna point fingers to anybody and create hatred cos both of them are important people in my life.
.
"LOVE conquers all" ; people say it does but yet some people still think AGE is a matter ; no comments from me.

"We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. This is what love means...sacrifice." ; why must we sacrifice in letting that special someone go when people say love conquers all and that age is never a matter?

heaven knows

2006-08-01T08:10:00.000-07:00

she's always on my mind...
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus:
maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine
so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus:
maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

chorus:
maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven know
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows.

PS: if you people have ben regular readers of my blog, you should know who is this song from and to whom it is dedicated to. the colours used to describe'i&u' is different. (;

2006-07-30T15:30:00.000-07:00

NDP preview was super wonderful+super superb!!! was supposed to go there for a 'date' with only me&zul but ended up going with syz athira. cos something popped up last minute and zul coudnt make it. thankx ehk you for the tix! i guess next tyme jek kiter go out together. haha!

the show was great! and it was an event with the Singapore Idol Finalist present. && Hady & Joakim soo hot! *drools*

it was GREAT & thats foolstop.

twisted!

2006-07-28T16:30:00.000-07:00

first and foremost, you guys really have to know this. and that is, i'll seldom update nowadays. not cos im so busy but just that at times i dont feel like blogging. either nothing special happened on that day or im just plain lazy and not in de mood to blog. so... i'll update only when necessary and when theres stories to share alright. truly really very sorry about that.

ME & MR RAIHAN
Me and Mr Raihan,
we got a thing going on,
but it's much too strong to let it cool down now.
Holding hands,
making all kinds of plans.
we gotta be extra careful that we don't build our hopes too high
Cause he's got his own obligations and so do I,
it's much too strong to let it cool down now.

im feeling so confused! it hurts being here and in my position! there are people who told me to just let it burn but i cant. its just too strong to let go. lagipon... today marks our three months of being together and it definately aint an easy road. its like i've hit all the humps and bumps. we have met our frequent ups and downs that i found it so hard to let it go! urghh!

"People say we can't last forever, and I know that is true, but no one ever said we can't last a lifetime!"

grr.

2006-07-21T15:20:00.000-07:00

goshh ; im so hating this moments... cos honestly speaking, i really feel like being single again. but to come to think of it again, am i just gonna let go of the relationship im in now? which i have been nurturing for sooo long and been through lotsa shits when being in it. yelahh. you people can say "baru due bulan lebey." but styll, i went through alot! from rejections to family conflicts to running away from home. thats the negative sides. haizz.

and yes!! its bloody true! i WAS the one who always wanted to meet you everyday in the past. but not anymore now ; cos im in need of my own space to breathe. and i dont like it when you critcise hym. im not standing up and defending hym, but it suckss. having my boyfriend talking bad about other guy when the other guy was the one who did MOST of the sacrifices. like keeping his feelings to hymself as to let you have me!

just what were you thinking when you criticiszed hym and stuffs? where was your mind? i know he styll contacted me despite knowing the fact im attached. but hey! why are you so unreasonable?! throwing your anger on me as if i did a BIG and tremendous fucking mistake! SHIT!

;; zulhelmy: happy 18th birthday dude! i wish you all the best in life and may all your wishes come true. happy ns-ing in december! you're gonna be missed. (:

- im outta here ; to hv -

tagged!

2006-07-20T02:40:00.000-07:00

was tagged by FADZILAH.. =)

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the question(s) until you named the 20 people. At the end of this choose 5 people to do this.
#1 -- Raihan
#2 -- Stephiee
#3 -- Azlindah
#4 -- Benson
#5 -- Zulhelmy
#6 -- Irsyarudin
#7 -- Zura
#8 -- Athira
#9 -- Munirah
#10 -- Arip
#11 -- Siedeek
#12 -- Farhan
#13 -- Afy
#14 -- Qish
#15 -- Ihsan
#16 -- Randell
#17 -- Lina
#18 -- Farwan
#19 -- Anita
#20 -- Kumar
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* How do you meet #14 - Qish?- my bf's sister ; MY sister-in-law(to-be)
* What would you do if you never met #1 - Raihan?- i would have missed tons of magical moments. <33 color="#ff0000">#9 - Munirah and #20 - Kumar dated?- lol. that can NEVER happen cos they dont even know each other & they are both attahed.
* would #6 - Irsyarudin and #17 - Lina makes a good couple?- hmm. maybe.
* Describe #3 - Azlindah- from area 51 ; a someone who always think the sky is GREEN. (:
* Is #8 - Athira attractive?- of course! ; my sister mahh. hehe!
* Describe #7 - Zura- how to? i havent even had the chance to meet her yet. ):
* Do you know #12 - Farhan family members?- my oh-so lovable ex-bf! uh-huh. a dad ; a mom ; a younger bro ; a younger syz.
* What would you do if #18 - Farwan confess to you that she likes you?- nonono!!! hes my bro!
* What language does #15 - Ihsan speak?- err.. English & Malay. probably SOME chinese.
* Who is #14 - Qish going out with?- Azlan.
* How old is #16 - Randell?- 18 this year.
* When was the last tyme u spoke to #13 - Afy?- err. few days back on msn.
* Who is #2 - Stephiee favourite band / singer?- JONATHAN!! of SI.
* Would You ever date #4 - Benson?- benson!? ; aayang's bestiee?! hell no! i woudnt want to create 'FRIENDSHIP RIVALRY.'
* Would you ever date #1 - Raihan?- woohoo! been there ; doing that.
* Is #13 - Afy single?- nopsie!
* Is #19 - Anita your good friend?- err. not yet soon maybe.
* What's #10 - Arip last name?- we malay have no last name. only got our own name.
* Would you be in a relationship with #11 - Siedeek?- been there ; DONE that.
* School of #3 - Azlindah?- Zone 51 ; Higher Institution. lol.
* Where does #6 -Irsyarudin lives?- Simei.
* What's your favourite thing about #5 - Zulhelmy?- HIS sweetness ; candy-licious.
* Have you seen #2 - Stephiee naked before?- no!
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* The 5 lucky charms that i'm gonna smacked and tagged are:
(1) Munirah - she'll NEVER let me down. (;
(2) Aifa - i hope you too!
(3) Mi-Zie-Ries - de-stress from all rship difficulties.
(4) Natra - de-stress from o's preparation.
(5) Wawa - release boredome maybe. lol

rugby hurts

2006-07-17T23:23:00.000-07:00

no wonder aayang often suffers from injuries. be it from rugby trainings or friendly matches. just look at how the game is played! so tough! my aayang is so super-dee-duper small sized but yet playing sucha tough sport. haiyahh. but what to do... his interest is already there.

bitch!

2006-07-17T19:30:00.000-07:00

"do you have time to talk to me? i have something very important to talk to you about. and i carn hold it much longer. fine. be that way. im gonna give you a message just for you. if dis doesnt do anytynk to you, then you are a person w/o any feelings. not me! its up to you to reply or not after reading it. but what i know is, i cried after reading it myself. i know that you are styll mad at me. your hatred towards me will grow and i'll be the cause for all of it. im not saying this to make you feel pity for me. but i do it for the benefit of getting you out of my head. its not that i dont have feelings for you anymore. but im scared of feeling the same thing over and over again. that is LOVE. love hurts and it truly does. that is the only thing im afraid of and also, i dont wanna break the ties between you and raihan. hes my friend ; even you are. i just cant watch my friends are in pain. please throw the feelings you had towards me and just stick as friends. im sorry if i had stabbed you with a knife through your heart with my words."
oh God! what now ZUL? and why now? im already so stressed up! one problem after another.! urgh! and some bitch just aint happy with the fact that my bro has moved on. my word to her is "MOVE ON YOU BITCH! MY BRO IS NO LONGER ATTRACTED TO YOU! YOU CAN SIMPLY GND WIH YOUR STEP-BIG FIR!!"

HER side of the story

2006-07-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

okies dokies! rise and shine people. now its MY side of the story.
HER to HYM
muhd raihan roslan... i too feel bad. i feel useless. and all i can do is to cry! why is this all happening to me? why are your friends sucha jerks! looking down and talking bad about me all the tyme. i admit i aint a good girlfriend ; i get on your nerves, i piss you off all the tyme. but that doesnt give your pathticaly insane friends the rights to talk shits about me! they are fucking pathetic for your info. and i know i aint "supposed to worry about people hanging around cos they aint bringing us down." but im worried. i too have a heart ; i too can feel when things are no longer the same. i have always loved those times we spent together ; your warm hugs, your tender kisses, your endless laughter and not to forget, your mater yang SEPET. it breaks my heart you know seeing the pictures i have of us being together happily in the past ; why not anymore? the feeling of being together is just different. i know we are STILL officially together. and im glad for it. but, your friends just suckss! and i hate them to the core. but theres something that you really need to know and that is "dearr... knowing and being with you have really taught me alot. it teaches me the meaning of TRUE LOVE and i dont want it to end here. i'm very blessed to have you in my life ; i dont wanna live life alone, cos a picture seems perfect when WE are in it." to be honest, there are tymes when i spent my day doing nothing, but only crying day and night. i totally have no idea what to do. do i really deserve this all this pain? NO! i seriously dont want us to argue and allow our love to tear apart. and definately not due to your pathetically insane 'friends' who are envy-ing us so badly. i dont wanna let you go. cos i wanna build an empire of happiness with just you, me and our two kids. but i can no longer tolerate this shits! i too dont like it when you start saying things about me ; bad ones of cos. i know im bad ; making you feel as if i have other guys and flirt alot. but i swear to you that you are my only one. the one my heart misses every minute of every hour ; and who is on my mind every second of everyday i live my life breathing. YOU ARE MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR. i too may appear like i dont care aobut what you're doing. but actually i do. i always ask myself, "why must i do shits to you when you never and why must i always hurt your feelings with my silence when you try your very best to not even cause a scrath in my heart. you take extra care of my heart and dont mind getting your heart just not to offend me. i understand that you deeply feel insecure when i message or look at other guys. but dont worry dear. "hatiku hanya menyebut namamu dan rinduku hanya untukmu." no guys aint gonna be able to steal me away from you. you're styll the apple of my eyes ; styll the one i kiss good night ; styll the one i message the moment i wake up ; styll the one who is able to make me smile like noone else can ; styll the one i say "i love you" to ; styll the one my heart is beating for. i promise to never let you go. cos im simply too attached to you till i can never imagine what life would be without your presence in it. to be honest, a part of me wants to leave you alone but i just cant. a part of me too tells me that i should work things out. cos i really wanna be with you. when you look at me, do you see me as your wife? i hope you do cos when i look into your eyes, i am able to see my future and i see YOU as my husband ; someone i'd be loving for the rest of my life. i am able to picture us loving each other for life. i too feel insecure at times. knowing the fact that you are good looking and the star player of your school, it would often be leaving me alone thinking "what if another lady were to come our way ; a someone who is much more finer than me and she want to take away our love, would you leave? would this relationship come to an end or is it going to be stronger as the person who came was just testing how strong our love was." i have made up my mind that you are the one i wanna spent the rest of my life with. the one i wanna die with. my heart was broken more than once before and i have promised myself to never love again, but YOU somehow managed to open the doors to my heart. i used to think love could only bring me pain but you have proved me wrong. i am really thankful to have found you ; someone who would be there for me anytyme of the day no matter how busy you are for that day ; someone who is willing to sacrifice his time just to be around me ; someone who is willing to spent his money on public phones just to hear my voice ; someone who is willing to miss an important event or rugby match just to be there for me. i really thank God for giving me a chance to be loved by a guy like YOU. you are simply more than amazing. and i can never find a word to describe the happiness i feel for having you in my life. you make me feel like in heaven when i am around you ; a feeling nobody else but YOU can make me feel. i wanna experience the feeling for eternity! i wanna let the whole world know how blessed life is to have you as part of it. i know MY family is kinda against us, but i dont want that to lemahkan your semangat oraites baby! have faith and insya'allah they will bless our relationship. and you too dont have to be spending alot on me just to make me happy. cos all i want is YOU with me and me able to call you mine for the rest of my life. thats all i ask for and it would be a tyme i would remember tyll eternity. i love you dear. till death do us part.

PS: no matter what happen...you'll be my only one ;i'll give you all my love,eventhough my mom says NO!<33

HIS side of the story

2006-07-16T23:45:00.000-07:00

HYM to HER
nur farlyanna mohamad nor... i feel bad when you message or meet other guys without me knowing. why? i know i get on your nerves but i feel bad too tau aayang. i hate it especially when you plan to tell me something and when my reply is "i tak faham aper maksod you ; explain siket.", all you can say is "takder pape." why? you are the one who tells me "no secret between us" but what is this? i just dont want anytynk bad to happen to us ; nor any secrets between us. so please okay sayang ; no more secrets from now on. i rather hear the truth than live with a lie. now i wanna talk about your kemarahan terhadap i... i know i have always been the one who starts the fight by saying something that is not true about you. but dear... when start to make faces after arguing, its tak sopan and tak manis dipandang orang. on 13.07.06 itself, i felt VERY bad. because kerane i, people talk bad about you behind your back. i dont mind it happening to me cos i dah biaser. but not to you. you're not just a girl ; you're the girl of my dream. i know my ego is big but i have always placed my egos aside when being around you ; so you too have to put your anger aside. im trying my very best to let go of it. you too have to try. the main thing is, we TRIED. i seriously dont want any gado-ing to occur between us. i really wanna settle down with you, love, cherish and spent the rest of my life with you sayang! i pon heran cos when i said "you smoke ehk?!" ; you looked shocked and diamkan diri. why sayang? it it true? DONT sayang.. PLEASE DONT! if you have any problem, share it with me. i have you and you have me. so we can talk about simply anytynk that we feel is not right. and sayang... i realised that you've changed. you're no longer the nur farlyanna i knew the last tyme. *private scene* why? are you telling me that you have someone else? it seems as if you love me no more. eventhough deep down in your heart i kow that i am the only one there. NOW AND FOREVER tyll heaven door. and im BEGGING you sayang... please dont ever tell me goodbye. cos i cant afford to lose you. dont ever leave me oraites dear. promise me that you will never let me go so easily. i too am trying to change. we must change the way we react to things. when we're walking together, i dont want anymore of sad faces ; we have to smile and let the world know how happy and blessed we are to have each other. and one more thing... why is it when a guy looks at you, you seem to auto-turn? asal? dorang tuh lebey hensem dari i kerr? i know im the apple of your eyes ; so no more of it k sayangg... im seriously hoping you would stop seeing guys when you're around me. the reason is simple ; cos i never do it. its not fair to me. i feel insecure too. and do you have any secret admirers? im sure you have kann. sebab when i asked steph about it, you cepat2 puseng and asked steph to say "takder." hmm. i really dont know arh aayang. i hope i am your only one. im really hoping this is not happening and it is just my IMAGINATION. and please dear... if there are guys who admire you, get them to forget you. i admit i too have girls going after me. but i quickly tell them to forget me. i told some of them already by saying "dont bother waiting for me cos im gonna be with nur farlyanna till the end of my life." they respected my decision and walked away at an instant. im sure you too can do it. i know you have many guys chasing you as if youre the cat and they're the dog. so plase aayang... ask them to forget you. im not trying to control your life. but you have to be fair to me too. im asking you to do this because i wanna spent the rest of my life with only you. i tak willing to share you with someone else. not even my best friend. so, dont leave me. like i've said, i cant afford to lose you. ; youre my heart and soul who makes me feel oh-so special each tyme we're out together. you never fail to make me feel special ; a feeling noone else has made me feel. my hope is for you to change upon today. no matter what the future may bring, i styll thank God for having found you and i swear that i will always love, cherish and honour you sayang. no matter what tyme of the day it is, i promise to be there for you 24/7. and if youre having any problem, i'll be there in an instant. no matter how busy i am. cos i cant afford to see you handle things alone cos i have made up my mind that you're gonna be my last ever gf ; i wanna settle down with you and love you untyl forever. i promise you that i will never let you go sweetheartt!! i love you many many alot! and always remember ; people AINT bringing us down sweetheart..!

pheww! that definately was long... ekeke! i'll update MY part of the story upon the next entry oraites. taking care people!

time check:0011HRS.

reality reality reality

2006-07-16T10:05:00.000-07:00

REALITY TALK

yess...! you guys are reding the correct word ; REALITY TALK!!

had a reality talk with hym. it was a damn freaking long yet meaningful one ; and whats written and said shall be posted when i have the mood. cos i am so insanely missing hym! but to be honest, the talk was very useful indeed. though some emotional thingy was pulled in, it styll manages to lead US to being more able to understand each others wants and needs.

*tyll here then!

you leave me just TORN!

2006-07-14T11:05:00.000-07:00

A part of me wants to leave you alone
A part of me wants for you to come home
A part of me says I'm livin a lie (and I'm better off without you)
A part of me says to think it through
A part of me says I'm over you
A part of me wants to say goodbye
A part of me is asking why

1st Pre-Chorus:
A part of me wants to leave
But a part of me wants to be here with you
And everytime I think that we're over and done
you do something that gets me back lovin you and you got me just torn

Chorus:
Torn in between the two
Cause I really wanna be with you
But something is telling me that I should leave you alone
You got me just torn in between the two
Cuz I really wanna be with you
But something is telling me that I should leave you aloneeeee

Verse 2:
What hurts the most is when we started out
It was cool it was everything that love’s about
But something happened
Cause I’m feeling so burned out
Becuz I can't understand you now
A part of me says it’s all my fault
A part of me says he aint’ what you want
A part of me says to get my bags
A part of me says I can’t do that

2nd Pre-Chorus:
A part of me wants to leave
But a part of me wants to be here with you
And everytime I think that it’s over and done
You make me fall back in love
You got me just torn…between the two

Chorus:
Torn in between the two
Cause I really wanna be with you
But something is telling me that I should leave you aloneeeeeeee

Bridge:
So many times I, I was ready to go
So many times I, had my foot out the door
So many times I, I thought to give him a chance
Thought he’d be a better man
Now I’m sitting here and I’m so confused
Cause I keep fighting myself for you
don’t know how much more I can take
But I can’t feel this way
YOU GOT ME SO TORN!!!

Chorus:
Torn in between the two
Cause I really wanna be with you
But something is telling me that I should leave you ALONE!

envy me for all i care

2006-07-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

♡ 2 8 0 4 0 6 ___ . ;; R A I H A N <33>

muhd raihan roslan...
i feel bad.
i feel useless.
and all i can do is to cry!
why is this all happeing to me?
why are your friends sucha jerks!
looking down and talking bad about me all the tyme.
i admit i aint a good girlfriend ;
i get on your nerves,
i piss you off all the tyme.
but why are your friends so pathetic?
i know i aint "supposed to worry about people hanging around
cos they aint bringing us down."
but im worried.
i too have a heart.
i too can feel when things are no longer the same.
i have always loved those times we spent together ;
your warm hugs,
your tender kisses,
your endless laughter
and not to forget,
your mater yang SEPET.
it breaks my heart seeing
the pictures i have of us being together happily in the past ;
why not anymore?
the feeling of being together is just different.
i know we are STILL officially together.
an im glad for it.
but, your friends just suckss!
dearr...
knowing and being with you have really taught me alot.
it teaches me the meaning of TRUE LOVE
and i dont want it to end here.
i'm very blessed to have you in my life ;
i dont wanna live life alone,
cos a picture seems perfect when WE are in it.
there are tymes when i spent my day doing nothing,
but only crying day and night.
i totally have no idea what to do.
do i really deserve this all this pain?
NO!
i seriously dont want us to argue
and allow our love to tear apart
just because your friends are envy-ing us.
i dont wanna let you go.
but i can no longer tolerate this shits!
oh God!
i am so stress!!

PS: no matter what happen...
you'll be my only one ;
i'll give you all my love,
eventhough my mom says NO!
<33

boredome!

2006-07-08T11:05:00.000-07:00

if loving you with all my heart is a crime,
then im guilty.

boredome has really gotten over me. im so bored with nothing to do. and life is so boring! i seriously got nothing to update. but mrs jedi nyer pasal, here i am cracking my brain updating.

thursday dated 060706 was definately a BAD day for me! very bad. imaging getting to meet your other half only after SIX freaking hours. *roll eyes* how pathetic can it get? its all due to the passing of the wrong info. and aayang injured hymself during the rugby match he played that afternoon. *now you have the clue why its after SIX freaking hours* get well soon aayang!

&&&. i am badly missing a number of people and their thingy!
[1] aayang - his love. <33
[2] mrs jedi[sis-in-law] - for her kecoh-ness (:
[3] mac crew[zulhelmy] - for his merepkness and advices.
[4] steph - i miss bitching around dover with her.
[5] irsyarudin - i miss his sarcasicm

okay! im in no mood to blog anymore. till the next entry! you guys do rock on for me aites!

PS: sorry about the SIMPLE skin. i accidentally deleted the important stuffs and is in no mood to change it to a proper one.

pixxiess!

2006-07-05T16:55:00.000-07:00

july suxx!

2006-07-05T12:05:00.000-07:00

i gotta agree with nana.
JULY SIMPLY SUCKS!
* the month i encountered the most number of arguments with hym.
* the month i had quite a number of tiffs with mom and dad.
* the month i spained my ankle.
* the month i bitched most when being the PMS bitch.
* the month i rot alot at home when hes in school.
urghh!~ im going crazy!!
but styll. thanx to stephiee for keeping me company with the lunch and lepaking sessions. you rock bestie!!

weirdo!

2006-07-01T00:10:00.000-07:00

i miss his voice!! the last tyme i talked to aayang was about 13 hours ago. that is because we're having some crisis. due to the words that came out from the mouth of wan. and maybe because of me too ; for over-reacting. but heyy. i carn accept it. its like hearing someone say "is that your boyfriend with another girl?" DAMMIT!~

lets forget the negativity of life and be reminded of the positive. (: i realised that i have wierd uncles and aunties. and also people around me. the reason i say that is because...

*this is the story of cik don and me*
i went to AH to visit nenek. i then went to the vending machine to grab some drink when i forgot cik don was there. i opened my wallet and he went, "itu mataer kann.", "dier tak samer skola dengan nana kann.", "dier ader satu kakak and satu adek kann.", "korang kenal kat keje kann." goshh! macam tawu jekk pakcik aku nie macam maner aku kenal an. LOL!

*this is the story of the next bed auntie and me*
went back to the bed. then mama and me was bored sitting there and we decided to talk to the next door patients daughter. was talking and suddenly the auntie asked me "girl.. you malay very good arhh. how you all keep this type of body?" i just smiled. dalam hati nak aje jawab "what?! cant you see that im fat auntie?!" ((:

*this is the story of the cik siti and me*
was about to leave the hospital when cik siti came. salamed her and she went "sexynyer nana!" padahal all i wore was a black cardigan with folded jeans and pumps. hahaha! wierdo!

k a k a

2006-06-29T21:26:00.000-07:00

im OBSESSED with this guy heree!! ; k a k a of brazil. *but dont worry aayang. youre styll the apple of my eyes ; the one who owns my heart.*