a story of the heart
baby. . . i've never expected much from you. it doesnt really matter how close you are to whoever you want. as long as you're happy with who you want to be with or what you want to do ; im happy too. because to be frank, it makes me happy seeing you being happy.
de truth is. . . yeah! you're the ONE AND ONLY guy who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same tyme. *maner mo dapat orang macam ginie. HAHA!* you too dont have to worry about me running away from you for you're de only one i have as a friend whom understands all my needs since before & till forever. [other than steph] ; and nothing will ever affect or change that fact.
well. . . if you dont treat mie as what im treating you as, i dont mind. i wont let my ego get into me. i have to admit that i do need you. cos you're that someone whom i want to share my everyting from head to toe about mi with!!
de point is. . . dont think too much. . . and learn how to appreciate whatever you've received. im trying my very best to please you ; to be de ideal friend. but it seems that my "roller coaster rides of emotion, jealousy & ego" has often made you frustrated even without having you to say a single word. i dont know how you want me to be or what you want me to do. so, tell mie please. i want to resolve it. i care. cos i want to build this frenship of ours till eternity ; cherishing it & appreciating every moment of it now & forever.
well baby. . . i truly know that im no one to stop you from remembering your past and differenciate my characters and personality with your exs. and also go around knowing other girls. but the feeling of 'urghness' and insecurity is making me feel like im being 'used'. i believe you never would 'use' me but im just scared! i know i got to trust you ; and its not that i dont trust you taw. i do trust yew. but i guess its just my feelings playing wit my mind.
lastly. . . sorry aites baby if you felt offended with me coming up with this entry. but i was just pouring out what i have been keeping in this porcelain heart of mine. but please remember that no matter what happen, you will still and always have a special place in my heart. <3
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