Kaka Is LOVE(:

k a k a

im OBSESSED with this guy heree!! ; k a k a of brazil. *but dont worry aayang. youre styll the apple of my eyes ; the one who owns my heart.*

9:26 PM

confession VS rejection

urgh! an sms conversation i had with an ex really gave me a BAD headache. heres what exactly was written.

A hym: heyy.just wondering...do you still have feelings for me and still loves me..?
mie: ferstly, i 'd like to apologise cos my words might hurt you in one way or another. so lets begin. to be honest, even after i have had muhammad raihan in my life, you still didnt fail to cross my mind. i still thought of you often. until one day, you beeped me to tell me about nur diyana. i soon told myself "cmon nur farlyanna! just move on and forget hym. he has moved on by having diyana so you too have." i thought about it for quite some times and yeah! i began to realise how true that phrase is. so, teman tapi mesra yarhh. now i ask you ; do you still have feelings for me and still loves me..?
A hym: yes... i still got feelings for you. i still love you the way you are. but i also understand you already have raihan. and is happy with hym. so i have to just accept the fact. i cant force you. or even beg you to return.
mie: my explanation to your confession is think about my status and think about what leza told you ; once i love someone, it very hard for me to let the person go.
A hym: thanks for the rejection.
mie: its not a rejection. its just that you came too late. im sorry!
A hym: nahh. its ok. i just wish you happy always with raihan. take care.

oh goshh! why now? but still. i really meant what i saed. that is im happy with raihan and you came too late. im truly very sorry!

PS: you peeps HAVE to click on the link below. i got it from a friend's friend's blog. its a korean movie regarding opposite attraction. it somehow shows ; till when will you stand beside your love one? ; the answer should be forever! even when you know it's gonna hurt you be it physically or emotionally. and it will cause you so much pain ; love is pain and pain is love. (: love is about risk taking ; are you willing to take the risk of going through physical and emotional pain(sometimes more) just to be happy with them. i guess love just keeps you going on and on. <33
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oWRbAnXOOP8

10:40 PM

in LOVE

todays date,
230606 ;
it marks our
one month three weeks two days
of being together.
and im truly honoured to say that
im very blessed to have been
the happiest and luckiest girl alive
having someone like you
to love, care, cherish, treasure and be there for me 24/7.
*eventhough you sucks at tymes*
but i love you styll.
hehe!
and baby.
thanks for showeing me with your endless love all this while.
though im the one who gets on your nerves most of the tyme.
thanks for being there styll ;
no matter what tyme of the day.
hope you are always there for me,
cos i simply wanna grow old with and die with you & you alone!
niwae,
i remembered watching you play rugby
and you really made me want to cry!
watching you play and expose your talent
really made me feel so proud of you sayang.
im sure gonna get my ass down
for your upcoming rugby match
cos im sure its gonna be
another PROUD moment for me.
hehe!
im gonna go screaming
and letting the whole world know that
the guy wearing jersey number ELEVEN
is MY star player.
and nothing can bring us down!
(:
* nur farlyanna binte mohamad nor
<3
muhammad raihan bin roslan.-

LETS COMMIT THE PERFECT CRIME ;
I'LL STEAL YOUR HEART AND YOU STEAL MINE.

10:50 AM

fuck...

just what fucking problem do you have muhammad raihan?
going around accusing me of stuffs i never do?
yes i admit ; i get on your nerves.
but that doesnt mean you can just play dumb whenever we have an argument.
leaving me being the one feeling guilty as if i did a fucking big mistake.
push aside your egoism for once.
i just cant always be the one saying "okay, its my fault. im sorry."
when i never even do or say anytynk thats fucking wrong.
i guess what mami said is true.
but...
im styll thinking what made me give her that type of answer.
mami: "yana... mami heran macam maner yana tahan keras kepale an? kalau mami jadi yana, dah lamer mami tinggalkan an."
me: "well mami. satu word jekk. LOVE. its kerane LOVE yana is styll here tolerating hym and his so-called nonsense."
what the fuck!
i wonder just what on this fucking earth was i thinking when i said that to mami.
haizz.
i guess its just a way God wants to test me and this relationship.
but im missing the old you.
the guy who'd ring me up just to tell me he misses me ;
the guy who'd stay up at night just because i cant sleep ;
the guy who'd hold my hand everytyme we're out together ;
the guy who'd cuddle me orund his arms whenever im feeling cold ;
the guy who'd lend me his shoulders if i needed a place to cry on.
urgh!
i just miss you even when im so fucking mad at you.
*should i hate you because you hurt me OR love you because you made me feel special?
-think about it-

9:15 AM

hmm

* my PAST is MINE ; my PRESENT & future is YOURS - remeber that aayangg. <33

i just HATE it so when people enter my blog, read the etries and not tag. i mean its like so rude! dah bacer tuhh at least take the initiative to tag. ini takk. dah baca then kecoh2 pat orang. haizz. ape nak jadikk.

now back to my life ; finally im starting work tomorrow! so happy and sad. happy cos can earn money ; sad because cannot rest already. *sobx* im so freaking bored!! aayang's prepaid is left with $0.00 and he cant message. urgh! i miss aayangg.!!!

Anyway,look what i found.
"Every girl should have THREE of her boyfriend's property ;
[1] a stuffed animal,
[2] one of his shirts,
[3] and a really pretty ring"

well. its wierd but true. cos i've gotten number [2]&[3] but has yet to get number [1]. shall demand a garfield from aayang ; cos a garfield reminds me of hym ; lazy bum. but the tummy not like aayang. cos aayang is FIT and has a super-d-duper NICE body. ((:

// off i go to la la land ; to dream of aayang... *
- i LOVE Muhammad Raihan___.

10:20 PM

boring!!

now i've got to sit and do this thingyy. niat di hati memang nak buwat when i saw in at hasanah's blog but i was just plain lazy. and now i've been tagged by syz nirah to do the same thingg. qwang qwang qwang. LOL!

7 random facts about me:
* friendly.
* attached to aayang.
* loves to sleep.
* loves hym and whoever who loves me.
* simple yet sophisticated.
* sensitive yet strong.
* into sports.

7 things that scare me:
* emotional pain.
* God.
* UNsweet dreams.
* silence.
* past memories.
* losing my loved ones.
* nightmares.

7 random music at the moment:
* i'll take the tears.
* lo que paso paso.
* whats left of me.
* i wanna be with you.
* episod cinta.
* kau dipaksa aku terpaksa.
* all my life.

7 things i like the most:
* family.
* besties.
* dearest aayang.
* junk foods.
* cellphone.
* myself! (:

7 things i sae the most:
* "huh?"
* "love you!" ; to hym only. *bluweks*
* "aper jekk"
* "i lapar arhh aayang."
* "thank wood many many alot!"
* "whatever larhh."
* "penat!!"

7 ppl to do this :
* eL.
* steph.
* izzan.
* amalina.
* nana.
* eton.
* whoever who wants t do it. (:

finally im done. noticed its a new blogskin. ((: been wanting to change it since like last week but had totally no idea on what skin to choose. okay okay. back to my life...

been okayy this farr. schhols fine ; relationship too ; family 'better'. and aayang is indeed smart. taught hym how to play bingo only ONCE but he even learnt the tactic. which took me a long tyme to learn. DAMN! haha!

im boredd. no idea what to blog. but before i forget ; thanx syz nirah for ALL the songss. ((:

6:40 PM

ferst and hopefully last

been m.i.a-ing for the past few dayss. due to exam stress. *macam real jek aku nie* HAHA!

i cant believe i actually did it ; i cooked for hym. the FIRST guy i cooked for. *hopefully its the last* ((: i cooked maggi [extra spicy] specially for hym ; due to hym being so hungry and not having anything to eat. and right now im feeling so the 'gabra'. LOL!

im outtta here! simply nothing to blog about.

*iloveyou!*

6:30 PM

SURVEY

3 names u go by:
farlyanna
yana
nana
...
3 parts of ur heritage:
malay
indian
indonesian
...
3 of ur everyday essential:
cellphone
food
hym
...
3 things ur wearing now:
OUR ring
black cardigan
pink boxer
...
3 of ur favret band or musical artiste-at e moment:
Matchbook Romance
Nick Lachey
Pussycat Dolls
...
3 things u wnt in a r/s other than love:
honesty
sincerity
humour
...
3 thruths n 2 lies (in no particular order):
i love hym
i hate sleeping ;)
i loves shopping
i love housewerk :)
i love eating!
...
3 physical things abt da opp sex tt appeals to u:
body
personality
smile
...
3 of ur favret hobbies:
sleep
eat
shop till i drop!
...
3 things u badly want rite now:
digicam
moneyy!!
hym. ):
...
3 places u wanna go for a hols:
maldives
australia
paris
...
3 things U wanna try doing:
BUNJEE JUMP
riding bike
kayakking.
...
3 peeps i would like to see to take this test:
steph
syz nirah
eL.

*END*

8:56 AM

like finally!

why is this happening to me? what does it simply mean? is it love? or maybe... nevermind. i aint gonna think of the negative. but hey. when i come to think of it, its like OH MY GOD!

IN THE PAST ;
it was ALWAYS me who wants to see him everyday,
to be in his arms and hear his sweet whispers.
because it feels as if ;
a day without meeting and staring into his eyes,
equals to a day i lived without breathing.
but NOW all i want is a day without him ;
because fights are a FOR SURE things to occur whenever we meet.
and that is the reason we dont talk all that much.
it's just so complicated.
i want to see him everyday too ;
but everytime i see him,
we'd fight over something small and stupid.

and now, im having this WIERD feeling ; of missing someone whom i loved hym and he too loveed me but we were just too afraid of pouring our feelings. cos he being afraid to confess because he knew raihan loved me and he kept quiet as not wanting his confessions to affect OUR friendship. and me on my side kept quiet too cos i was afraid my love was one-sided. BUT IT WASNT.

whatever it is. no regrets styll for the things that happened cos im glad to have met raihan and be in love with hym. <33

9:30 AM

sobx!

"sayang... iLOVEu so much... im sure gonna go crazy without you by my side tomorrow... im gonna miss you like hell... ahhh..!~"

gosh! im so sorry sayangg. its not that i dont wanna be by your side always but i have to attend the thingy. family function arhh. i'll make sure i meet you the first thing when i reach singapore oraites. ILOVEU!!

2:05 PM