Kaka Is LOVE(:

HER side of the story

okies dokies! rise and shine people. now its MY side of the story.
HER to HYM
muhd raihan roslan... i too feel bad. i feel useless. and all i can do is to cry! why is this all happening to me? why are your friends sucha jerks! looking down and talking bad about me all the tyme. i admit i aint a good girlfriend ; i get on your nerves, i piss you off all the tyme. but that doesnt give your pathticaly insane friends the rights to talk shits about me! they are fucking pathetic for your info. and i know i aint "supposed to worry about people hanging around cos they aint bringing us down." but im worried. i too have a heart ; i too can feel when things are no longer the same. i have always loved those times we spent together ; your warm hugs, your tender kisses, your endless laughter and not to forget, your mater yang SEPET. it breaks my heart you know seeing the pictures i have of us being together happily in the past ; why not anymore? the feeling of being together is just different. i know we are STILL officially together. and im glad for it. but, your friends just suckss! and i hate them to the core. but theres something that you really need to know and that is "dearr... knowing and being with you have really taught me alot. it teaches me the meaning of TRUE LOVE and i dont want it to end here. i'm very blessed to have you in my life ; i dont wanna live life alone, cos a picture seems perfect when WE are in it." to be honest, there are tymes when i spent my day doing nothing, but only crying day and night. i totally have no idea what to do. do i really deserve this all this pain? NO! i seriously dont want us to argue and allow our love to tear apart. and definately not due to your pathetically insane 'friends' who are envy-ing us so badly. i dont wanna let you go. cos i wanna build an empire of happiness with just you, me and our two kids. but i can no longer tolerate this shits! i too dont like it when you start saying things about me ; bad ones of cos. i know im bad ; making you feel as if i have other guys and flirt alot. but i swear to you that you are my only one. the one my heart misses every minute of every hour ; and who is on my mind every second of everyday i live my life breathing. YOU ARE MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR. i too may appear like i dont care aobut what you're doing. but actually i do. i always ask myself, "why must i do shits to you when you never and why must i always hurt your feelings with my silence when you try your very best to not even cause a scrath in my heart. you take extra care of my heart and dont mind getting your heart just not to offend me. i understand that you deeply feel insecure when i message or look at other guys. but dont worry dear. "hatiku hanya menyebut namamu dan rinduku hanya untukmu." no guys aint gonna be able to steal me away from you. you're styll the apple of my eyes ; styll the one i kiss good night ; styll the one i message the moment i wake up ; styll the one who is able to make me smile like noone else can ; styll the one i say "i love you" to ; styll the one my heart is beating for. i promise to never let you go. cos im simply too attached to you till i can never imagine what life would be without your presence in it. to be honest, a part of me wants to leave you alone but i just cant. a part of me too tells me that i should work things out. cos i really wanna be with you. when you look at me, do you see me as your wife? i hope you do cos when i look into your eyes, i am able to see my future and i see YOU as my husband ; someone i'd be loving for the rest of my life. i am able to picture us loving each other for life. i too feel insecure at times. knowing the fact that you are good looking and the star player of your school, it would often be leaving me alone thinking "what if another lady were to come our way ; a someone who is much more finer than me and she want to take away our love, would you leave? would this relationship come to an end or is it going to be stronger as the person who came was just testing how strong our love was." i have made up my mind that you are the one i wanna spent the rest of my life with. the one i wanna die with. my heart was broken more than once before and i have promised myself to never love again, but YOU somehow managed to open the doors to my heart. i used to think love could only bring me pain but you have proved me wrong. i am really thankful to have found you ; someone who would be there for me anytyme of the day no matter how busy you are for that day ; someone who is willing to sacrifice his time just to be around me ; someone who is willing to spent his money on public phones just to hear my voice ; someone who is willing to miss an important event or rugby match just to be there for me. i really thank God for giving me a chance to be loved by a guy like YOU. you are simply more than amazing. and i can never find a word to describe the happiness i feel for having you in my life. you make me feel like in heaven when i am around you ; a feeling nobody else but YOU can make me feel. i wanna experience the feeling for eternity! i wanna let the whole world know how blessed life is to have you as part of it. i know MY family is kinda against us, but i dont want that to lemahkan your semangat oraites baby! have faith and insya'allah they will bless our relationship. and you too dont have to be spending alot on me just to make me happy. cos all i want is YOU with me and me able to call you mine for the rest of my life. thats all i ask for and it would be a tyme i would remember tyll eternity. i love you dear. till death do us part.

PS: no matter what happen...you'll be my only one ;i'll give you all my love,eventhough my mom says NO!<33

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