Tuesday, January 30, 2007

NINE MONTHS = THE END.

NO FURTHER QUESTIONING.

THANK YOU (:

HAPPY NINE MONTHS BABY!
an ADVANCED one it is.
by ONE day.
(:

for hearing my thoughts, understanding my dreams and being my best friend, for filling my life with joy, i'd like to say "I LOVE YOU".

goshh ; im so hating this moments...
cos honestly speaking,
i really feel like being single again.
but to come to think of it again,
am i just gonna let go of the relationship im in now?
which i have been nurturing for sooo long and been through lotsa shits when being in it.
yelahh.
you people can say "belom setahun."
but styll, i went through alot!
from rejections to family conflicts to running away from home.
thats the negative sides it is.
haizz.

&
i just dont know what is wrong with me?
why am i like this? why honey baby?
why?
i know that you truly love me and im not saying im doubting your love.
but my nights are spent on wondering about you.
wild questions often goes running through my mind.
questions like...
why do i often go doing the wrong things at the wrong time?
why am i even saying the wrong words till it hurts you emotionally?
why am i so stupid to be doing all this?
have i given you all the love that you need?
why do i feel like im losing you to someone else?
will i be able to live on if our love fails?
why is that insecurity feeling suddenly in me?
am i holding on to our love too strongly?
or is it that im just taking our love as an on-off thingy?
why is it that you can treat me super nicely at one moment and super horribly at another?
do i really deserve to be loved by a guy like you?
argh!!

&&
im missing the old you.
the guy who'd ring me up just to tell me he misses me ;
the guy who'd stay up at night just because i cant sleep ;
the guy who'd hold my hand everytyme we're out together ;
the guy who'd cuddle me orund his arms whenever im feeling cold ;
the guy who'd lend me his shoulders if i needed a place to cry on.

hohoho! thanks to my dearest Mister Noh Alam Shah for scoring during just now's match thus giving Singapore a 1-1 draw with Malaysia (:

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;; ZIE: hey babe! i miss you too! i've bumped onto you the other day. i'll date you soon aitess. lovee!
;; stephiee: lifes as usual. nothing new. hehe.
;; FUMIKOfatin: step Jepon pulak adek aku nie. ELEVEN days? aper sheyy? (:
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[I LOVE MY SUPERMAN]

I LOVE THIS GUY HERE BUCKETFULL LOADS!!

todays date, 220107. which means SIX MORE DAYS TO GO AND ITS OUR NINE MONTHS!! ((:
&& ELEVEN DAYS TO HIS BIRTHDAY!! but yet i havent thought of anything to get hym. otak buntu babe!!

amazed with the distance we could fly and really thank God for bringing us thus far. without hym, i bet my life would be insanely lost. not knowing which direction to head for in life. thanks dear for all the sacrifices you've done ; for all the love you've rained me with. && for being super patient tolerating me and my tantrums. (:

&& im honoured okay being the FIRST ever girlfriend of yours to be celebrating your birthday with you. hope to be the FIRST & LAST! i promise you its gonna be the best day of your life aitess. a day of only you & me. hohoho!

im out of here! this is a 'semangat seminit' nyer entry. haha! much love loveliess.

;; FARAZ: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! or should i say, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to Muhammad Farwan & Nur Azlindah. more to come loveliess (:
;; Nir[a]zrouf: HAPPY EIGHT MONTHS! cheers to you guyss. (:

When I'm lost, in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around, yes

And when I'm down you're there
Pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got
For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
I turn to you, yes

When I lose, the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach
The sky again, I can do, anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night, yeah

For a shield (for a shield), from the storm (from the storm)
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
(For a love to keep me safe and warm)
I turn to you (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength), to be strong
For the will to carry on, uh
For everything you do
I turn to you, yeah, ohhh

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who, I can run to, ohh I...
Turn to you...ohhh yeah

For a shield , from the storm
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
(To keep me safe and warm, yeah)
I turn to you (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength), to be strong
For the will to carry on, oh ohh
For everything you do (everything you do)
For everything that's true
For everything you do, ohh
For everything that's true
I turn to you

[for everything thats true, i turn to you]

[I REALLY THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME MY MAN]

mariah)
I would give up everything
Before Id separate myself from you
After so much suffering
Ive finally found a man thats true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby Im so thankful
I found you

(joe)
I would give you everything
Theres nothing in this world I wouldnt do
To ensure your happiness
Ill cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I cant survive
I dont wanna try
If youre keeping me warm each and every night
Ill be all right
Cause I need you in my life

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you (Im begging you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby Im so thankful
I found you

-bridge- (mariah & joe)
See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
That we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And Id go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby Im so thankful
I found you

(chorus - all)
Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby Im so thankful
I found you

(mariah)
Im overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby Im so thankful I found you

[ SIAPA SEBENARNYA YANG MENJADI PUNCA PERPISAHAN KITA ]

i dont know what is happening to my relationship with MY MAN. at times, we are the most suitable couple ; but at aonther, we can be the worst enemies. haizz. but despite it all, it was so sweet of MY MAN to get me egg tarts from Prima Deli. ; as he knew i wanted it. (:

&& he went to the shop as early as NINE in the morning just to reserve the tarts. howw sweet. the timing was stated on the receipt. hohoho! MY MAN is the best.

i'm done with the entry! wanna talk to hym. so missing hym. *padahal kat kerje baru meet* kwang kwang kwang! ciaoszz~

was sitting on the bed last night & forcing myself to sleep when i suddenly came up with this. now that my relationship with MY MAN is shaking pretty bad, i came up with "a letter to the girl who'd take over my place in his heart if ever our relationship were to come to an end."

to YOU,
there are just a couple of things that i thought you should know. i learned these things while i was the lady of your guy.
[x] DONT be frightened if he showers much more love on you than you had expected.
[x] DONT be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have met.
[x] DONT be scared about the fact that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly.
[x] he would REMEBER everything you will say.
[x] he is very EASILY hurt, especially by words you say carelessly.
[x] a KISS and an "I love you" can soften his heart.
[x] MOST of the time, he won't tell you what he is feeling.
[x] but, just look into his beautiful BROWN eyes and you will be able to see into him.
[x] PLEASE dont hurt him ; cos a worse feeling any girl would feel is to know that someone else have the boy she love and that someone else have hurt him.
[x] no matter how mad he is with you during a fight, TRUST me when i say "he will always keep his temper and will never curse at you or call you names"
[x] DONT hold a tight grip on him, as he can be a very independent person. but no matter how busy he could be, he will always make time for you so please DONT take him for granted.
[x] eventhough he will never admit it, you must really know that he likes to be surprised.
[x] he is so sweet and amazing that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart.
[x] he is an indeed a very encouraging person ; encouraging you to chase your dream and never stop.
[x] he likes it when you kiss his ear.
[x] the sight of how your hands fit perfectly, it would seem as if nothing in the world could hurt you because he is there.
[x] his words to you are just so true ; when he puts his arms around you and says "you are the girl i truly love", you will know, there isn't any guy in the world better than him.
[x] SO, DONT ever let him go cos i promise you that you will regret it for the rest of your life.

first and foremost, im really very sorry for not updating. the reason is not that im busy or what. its just because im so plain lasy! (: so, let me recall what happened since i've been away. but it will sure take some times as i am talking to MY MAN. <33

i've began to realise that life and love is not always like a rainbow that shines on us every single day. there is a for sure times when you feel the world is on your shoulder. close peeps can be there to motivate you to be looking on the brighter side of life. but SOME are just 'sweet talkers'. they seem to only know what to say but they dont try putting themself in our shoes. whatever larh okay!

my relationship with MY MAN have been shaking VERY bad. the word 'time off' & 'break up' is always spoken by us. im so hating it. it occurs because of some minor problems. but no worries. we're still together ; but not as strong as last time. just have to pray hard that it doesnt really come to an end any soon.

im in no mood to blog anymore! im gonna end my entry here aitess. but before i go, i'd like to wish "HAPPY BELATED ONE MONTH TO waw[A]yie" ,semoga korang kekal forever okayy. much love!! <33

its 0702 and im already up! WTH! biler aku sekolah, punyer susah nak bangon... GRR! but its okay. cos it gives me the chance to update. ((:

since i plan to get something for my darling FATIIN, i have to force myself to like another phone which has a lower budget and im glad to say my eyes has been glued to the LG KG 800. here are the features and colours available.

FEATURES:
Dimensions: 95×48x15.2mm
Weight: 83g (with standard battery)
Display: 265K Color TFT, 176 x 220 Pixels
Standard Battery: 800mAh
Standby Time: Up to 200hrs
Talk Time: Up to 6hrs
Technology: GSM
Frequency: 900/1800/19000 MHz (Tri-band)
Data Transmission: GPRS class 10
**but here are the link to a better understanding of the features--
http://www.gsmarena.com/lg_kg800-1533.php#

THE COLOURS:
LG Chocolate White Chocolate

LG Chocolate Black

LG Chocolate Pink


**there is another colour actually ; something like maroon. but im having trouble trying to upload it. FUGG!~

im out of here! much love loveliess.