Thursday, January 25, 2007

goshh ; im so hating this moments...
cos honestly speaking,
i really feel like being single again.
but to come to think of it again,
am i just gonna let go of the relationship im in now?
which i have been nurturing for sooo long and been through lotsa shits when being in it.
yelahh.
you people can say "belom setahun."
but styll, i went through alot!
from rejections to family conflicts to running away from home.
thats the negative sides it is.
haizz.

&
i just dont know what is wrong with me?
why am i like this? why honey baby?
why?
i know that you truly love me and im not saying im doubting your love.
but my nights are spent on wondering about you.
wild questions often goes running through my mind.
questions like...
why do i often go doing the wrong things at the wrong time?
why am i even saying the wrong words till it hurts you emotionally?
why am i so stupid to be doing all this?
have i given you all the love that you need?
why do i feel like im losing you to someone else?
will i be able to live on if our love fails?
why is that insecurity feeling suddenly in me?
am i holding on to our love too strongly?
or is it that im just taking our love as an on-off thingy?
why is it that you can treat me super nicely at one moment and super horribly at another?
do i really deserve to be loved by a guy like you?
argh!!

&&
im missing the old you.
the guy who'd ring me up just to tell me he misses me ;
the guy who'd stay up at night just because i cant sleep ;
the guy who'd hold my hand everytyme we're out together ;
the guy who'd cuddle me orund his arms whenever im feeling cold ;
the guy who'd lend me his shoulders if i needed a place to cry on.