Wednesday, February 28, 2007

as quoted by sis in law, some 'low class & uncivilised' person just tagged my board uttering some shits about me&hym. well. sorry to say, i've got no time to tolerate you&your shits. plusplus, they are pure nonsense. GET A LIFE OKAY, handsome! eew ; what a name.


ps: happy 10 months. much ♥

i'm choking on the words i didn't get to say
& pray i get the chance one day.

i still think you'll be there like before.

FAITHFULLY i trace your name while you sleep
& it's the only true comfort i feel.

♥ some things the heart won't listen to ; im still holding out for you ♥

not having the mood to do anything really sucks to the max!

;; broE1&sis-in-law: happy 13th months lovelies! everlasting love to you both! <33
;; nir[a]zraouf: happy 9th months! miss you people!
;; na[z]ri: happy 5th months to you!

I MISS YOU, MY LOVE!

that picture showed it all,
you had your hand behind her shoulder.
was i supposed to just shuddup?
was i in the wrong to have questioned you?
was i even in the wrong to have felt jealous?
when i asked you those questions,
you told me to just forget it.
FCUK YOU BOY!
what do you take me for?
a doll with no feelings?
i know now i'm no one special to you.
especially not at times you're enjoying yourself.
who am i to you anyway?
just some bitch you own?
or maybe someone top on your list when it comes to breaking hearts?
i don't understand this.
i try to make you feel special everytime i can.
so why cant you play ur part?
it isn't that difficult you know?
okay,
so maybe sometimes i don't give you space to breathe,
but heck,
i still do okay?
i want you to be happy.
and sometimes maybe im too hard on you.
but you know i care.
if not i wouldnt be calling frequently.
if not i wouldnt even still be holding on to you.
please i'm begging you.
just this once.

the best love ;
is one that awakens the soul
& makes us reach for more.
that plants a fire in our heart
& brings peace to our mind.
thats what you've given to me
& i hope to give you for the rest of your life.

ITS ME WITH THE ROSE (:
&&
IM SO IN LOVE WITH CUPCAKESS!
<33

ps: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY & HAPPY BIRTHDAY EX-BOYFRIEND!

REPLY TO THE TAGS

Z I E: hey babe! stay calm n think aites. It will make u feel beta. Jus think abt the good tyms u guys been 2gether. it werks fer me & hope u 2..
-> thanx darls for those encouraging words. i will look on the bright side of this relationship and pray it will make me feel better. but having you by my side is good enough. thanks once again. (:

twisted: jealousy can kill i agree. i was caught in the same situation as ur FEB 8 post. but love needs give and takes. jealousy must have the limits too. think it thru. smiles! take care!
->haizz. maybe what you said is true afterall. but i still cant accept what i saw. menyakitkan hati. but im gonna think things really through and aint gonna let a picture ruin my everything. thanks to you too!!

aDeQ: im blur syzz !! tell me !!
-> well. i'll clear my mind from everything and will tell you only then aitess. soon hopefully. (: much lovve!

dear you.

i just want you to know that your actions are really leaving me hanging, not knowing of my next step ; to continue or to end. our time off has really set my mind thinking of lots of things ; eg. the happy times we saw and also the had times we faced. i'm not trying to say "i no longer love you" but the pictures. they are killing me. maybe what sister-in-law said is true afterall ; "dont let a picture ruin your everything". but im just afraid that history will repeat itself if i were to give you a second chance. i gotta admit that im a fickle minded person. & thats making matter worst. at one time, i want you back ; and at another, i dont. just let me think it through again.

after all thats been said, you just give me few more days and i'll give you a FINAL decision. a NO-TURNING BACK decision.

ps: i miss you so.

to that someone who unoeinoe about my situation, DO keep it to yourself okayy. i turned to you cos i had that special trust in you. so, dont let me down aitess.

sometimes, i just wish that i was dumb ; having the lack of ability to speak. cos it seems that everything i say will make things go wrong. && maybe if my heart stopped beating, it woudnt hurt this much.

i did ask you the question of "how would you have felt if ..." and your answer was "angry!" then why did you do it to me? i dont think you knew how i was feeling the very moment i saw the picture! i dont give a damn regarding your whatever "ship" you're having with her. but fcuk larh! you know how strong my jealousy is right! it can even kill me.

i've tried my very best to ignore the wild thoughts i have in mind but it seems so hard. hours have passed but still, im thinking about it. i know i should be trusting you and not doubting you. but how would you feel if it REALLY happened to you? i'm sure you'd feel the same too! its killing me!

ps: how i wish whatever i saw was only a dream ; not a reality.

Umbrella

Ramalan Ku Benar Belaka

Hingga ke saat ini
Berbagai persoalan
Tak henti melanda
Buntu... ku memikirkannya

Kau memilih diri ku
Di atas dasar apa
Apakah kerna cinta
Atau... pelepas sepi cuma

Seumpama... dedaunan...
Yang telah gugur bertaburan
Membiarkan... ranting dimamah usang

Apakah semua itu
Akan terjadi pada ku
Andainya benar
Maka tepatlah apa yang diramalkan

Waktu bersama mu
Banyak benar kenangan yang kita ciptakan... bersama
Dan satu darinya... engkau bersyahdu
Bahawa aku takkan kehilangan mu
Susah payah kita... semai benih cinta
Merempuh dugaan akhirnya kau tinggalkan
Susah payah kita... semai benih cinta
Merempuh dugaan... akhirnya kau tinggalkan
Sia-sialah ku bina istana cinta
Andai insan lain... dihati mu... bertakhta
Hingga ke saat ini... ku masih terkenangkan
Saat-saat yang indah... nyata kesudahan aku parah

i got this gift yesterday from the most precious person in my life ; MY MAN. the birthday boy came to me with a bag from Teng Huat Jewellery. i thought he had something for work in that bag but i was so shocked to see the mickey mouse box. *shy* he then told me to close my eyes and he wore it for me. i wanted to cry larhh. -but yana mantain jekk- haha! im loving being so loved larhh! (:

PS: thanks baby for the gift! && i hope you like the ones i gave to you. LOVE YOU LOADS LARHH!!

the slide on the previous entry goes out specially to the love of my life. its been a long and bumpy journey with you for the past NINE months. but i thank God for bringing us thus far. the smies, laughter & tears are those sweet memories i'll never forget. im sure we'd be able to see forever baby! <33

There will only be
My love for you and yours for me
A lifetime now full of joy and love
Guided by the one above
A lifetime full of happy tomorrows
Lots of joy and occasional sorrows
But through the few there will always be
Someone to cheer you ;
& That someone is ME.

words cant say what love can do,
i'll be there for you. (:

;; syz athira: happy 13th birthday bebey! wait for your belated prezzie okay. tanak takper. (: love youu larhh!