i wish. i wish. i wish.
to that someone who unoeinoe about my situation, DO keep it to yourself okayy. i turned to you cos i had that special trust in you. so, dont let me down aitess.
sometimes, i just wish that i was dumb ; having the lack of ability to speak. cos it seems that everything i say will make things go wrong. && maybe if my heart stopped beating, it woudnt hurt this much.
i did ask you the question of "how would you have felt if ..." and your answer was "angry!" then why did you do it to me? i dont think you knew how i was feeling the very moment i saw the picture! i dont give a damn regarding your whatever "ship" you're having with her. but fcuk larh! you know how strong my jealousy is right! it can even kill me.
i've tried my very best to ignore the wild thoughts i have in mind but it seems so hard. hours have passed but still, im thinking about it. i know i should be trusting you and not doubting you. but how would you feel if it REALLY happened to you? i'm sure you'd feel the same too! its killing me!
ps: how i wish whatever i saw was only a dream ; not a reality.
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